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"Life and the boredom it brings"

Whats wrong with me?

I can't find contentment, and worse, I what it is in my life that is wrong.

I used to believe that all we had to do was to put our faith in God. I used to believe that I had a space inside me that was God shaped, and that when I truely believed in God I would be Happy. I don't believe so any more. I've been deluding myself. There is no god, and if there is a god, there is no love for me.

I thought that being in love would make me happy. When I was younger I would stare at myself in the mirror and think to myself, If only somebody would kiss me I would be happy forever. If only someone loved me I would be vindicated in this life.

I found someone to love me. So why am I crying everyday. Why do I get bored even when my love is with me. He doesn't make me happy, I make him sad. I make him desperate because there is nothing he can do to stop me crying.

I'm bored all the time. I have no interest in anything I do. TV, Video games, DVDs, Music, Books. I buy and buy in the hope that one of these things will lift my boredom, give me a purpose, and for a time I find a new game or TV seris, or a book that distracts me. 40 hours of Final Fantasy fantasy or Buffy the Vampire Slayer later I'm left with nothing. I've invested my time into a fantasy that isn't real.

So someone please tell me, what are we here for. What is the point in this life. We live and We die. A small handful of us do something worthwhile behind. A mark on the world. But even then we still die. We are still dead, and we have nothing.

Like phuzzy suggested, couldn't you just move out. Sod the contract.

I want to go back to being the shallow, shackles-free man of old where music, mates and naked chicks saying "Just #### me" were the order of the day.

*reminisces*
2 in one morning and a third on the Sunday.
And here I sit, not wanting to go back to a cottage with a depressive, joyless cipher.

What kind of man am I? An angry one.

I love all you people. *sobs*

phuzzy wrote:

> The games forums don't seem to hold much anymore..

Try the Retro Games forum...I put posts in there but no-one ever seems to venture into there...

...Really must go home now

**runs out of the office**

I hate the lack of spell checker..

*comedy*

I haven't really ventured into this forum much, but now, it seems to discuss things which couldn't be ventured near without someone mentioning a monkey, and is now my favourite forum, along with Movies, Music and Books.

The games forums don't seem to hold much anymore..

Right...I've finished work for today, so I'm off home. Don't forget to tell the people you love how much they mean to you, it'll bring a smile to both your faces!

I guess it's good to have *some* comdey in, to lighten up the atmosphere.

*laughs at kitten*

Its great. Its better than an advice column. Everyone helping everyone else, and giving us there own personal take on life.

LOL at FM...

But no worries Ros, glad I could help you see things a bit better. :0) I love these forums, they always help me. And as much as I post poetry on here, there's nothing I much prefer to do than have topics like this where we're all discussing everything.

phuzzy wrote:
> This is one of the best threads I've been in for a while.
>
> Probably because theres so much coming from everyone.

And due to the topic remaining serious....most of the time!