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"I'm not amazing"

Am I special? Am I different? If I died today would anyone remember me?

No

Is there anyway I can be special, Is there any achievement I can make that would make me feel that I was worthy enough to go out among people with pride and confidence. At this point I have to say no. I don't think that my life will ever amount top anything that will make me proud of myself.

I'm very up and down. I'm so amazingly happy one minute, and then I find myself on the floor crying the next. I'm finding it hard to express exactly what I'm feeling today. But I need to get this off my chest and for people to read it.

I want to be amazing. I want to make a difference. I want for the world to grieve for me when I die. I want attebtion. I want love. I want friendship. I really want friendship, and someone to talk to, someone who understands and won't judge me. But I can't reach out to the people I know. Its not the way I am. So I sit here and tella bunch of anonymous readers my deepest feelings.

How sad is that?

Actually going to the moon and back would be pretty cool,
so long as you did come back,

hell, if you didn't then you'd definitely be remembered.

There have been one hundered and fifty something (I think) shuttle launches and only 16 of the astronauts will be remembered.

one is niel armstrong, one is buzz aldrin (sp?)

the other fourteen are those seven guys in challenger and those seven guys in columbia.

IF you want to help people, why don't you help a charity out or something?

Rosalind wrote:
> btw that should be man or woman who cures cancer.
>
> I'm in with a shot you know :p

It'll be a man, history has proven that fact enough times.

Do the people that you help give you a thought when they don't need your help anymore?

Rosalind wrote:
> I wouldn't. I had a friend who had schizophrenia brought on by
> cannabis.

Wise move.

From having the same feelings I thought to myself that for me to have the whole world mourn for my end would be a tough task, as I don;t have the brain matter to get myself into a position of that magnatude unless I was to be evil about it. Though I know there are others around me that may have the potential. Sad as you all may mock me, but I have almost devoted my life to helping others. It gives me a personal feeling of self-importance without the selfishness, and to see another person happy from something I have done makes the day seem worthwhile.

S, you are the only S I know.

your not the only simon I know though

Maybe thats what you will be remebered for?

btw that should be man or woman who cures cancer.

I'm in with a shot you know :p

unless you're talking to some other S,
it which case I'm still the mean, shallow bruiser type ;)

The sagacious one wrote:
>Even Shakespeare, the man who cures cancer


I didn't realise ol' Bill cured cancer...?