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"I'm not amazing"

Am I special? Am I different? If I died today would anyone remember me?

No

Is there anyway I can be special, Is there any achievement I can make that would make me feel that I was worthy enough to go out among people with pride and confidence. At this point I have to say no. I don't think that my life will ever amount top anything that will make me proud of myself.

I'm very up and down. I'm so amazingly happy one minute, and then I find myself on the floor crying the next. I'm finding it hard to express exactly what I'm feeling today. But I need to get this off my chest and for people to read it.

I want to be amazing. I want to make a difference. I want for the world to grieve for me when I die. I want attebtion. I want love. I want friendship. I really want friendship, and someone to talk to, someone who understands and won't judge me. But I can't reach out to the people I know. Its not the way I am. So I sit here and tella bunch of anonymous readers my deepest feelings.

How sad is that?

Hmmm...well, my advice would be one of the following:

A - Seek advice from a counsellor. Once you get over the initial "OhmiGOD I'm seeing a shrink, ergo I must be a loon" taboo that it entails, you may find it incredibly easy to open up to a stranger. And more to the point, unlike we board dwellers, a counsellor is in the position to offer some advice that will be useful to you.
The way you're feeling is certainly nothing to be ashamed of, and the sooner you take steps to address it, the less likely you will be to associate your current state of mind with your actual identity, and thus be less willing to do something about it. Or...

B - Seek out Goatboy and have angry (I mean REALLY angry) jungle sex.

Admittedly that might not be a tremendous amount of help, but it couldn't hurt (unless he does that trick with his thumb and forefinger...).

wow I'm being very honest today

youve got to believe in yourself and set yourself a target or an aim.

go out places with friends, enjoy yourself. really make an effort.

hehe

Goatboy wrote:
> I was called?

Your annoying.

You irritate me so much, but there is an attraction.

bah.

I don't know what makes me happy.

Somethings make me happy, but then they make me sad.

I don't know what I mean any more.

I think I ought to take a break from this place, I'm not sure its healthy for me.

I was called?

Hey, at least you talk to SOMEONE about how you feel. Even if it is anonymously over the internet, it's better than locking your feelings away and growing increasingly closed in on yourself.

It sounds very much like you need to find out exactly what will make you happy. You obviously have some ideas about what would do that, but no clear idea of how to go about it.

I have a friend who wrote down everything that made her unhappy, and she resolved to avoid everything that she had written down. If it was unavoidable, she tried to figure out a way to make it bearable. Maybe that would help?

Failing that, I'm pretty sure that Goatboy would be more than happy to help you feel...well, perhaps not exactly 'special' but I'm sure you can see where I'm going with this one...

Pish

Rosalind wrote:
> How did we end dissusing sex at zero gravity.
>
> And why do all my posts end up in similar dissucsions
>
> :S

Its just the effect you have on us I think, bad influence you are.