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The thing that happens to be bugging me is that after we broke up she told me she loved me (actually "in love" not just the sort of 'love' you stick at the end of an email or text) and that she wants to have a baby with me.
Cue fear of fatherhood and the realisation I'm actually just a kid myself to kick in.
The thing that quite worries me is that I haven't known this girl a great deal of time at all. We met at a party, got drunk and did some stuff together and we started going out, but after a while (once I'd sobered up) I didnt feel the same and chose to end it to avoid and later heartache from prolonging the relationship. She took it badly. Really badly. With cries of "don't you find me attractive?" and "what have I done wrong" ringing through my head, I came back with the clichéd-to-death, "its not you, its me" which seemed to settle her down.
I've actually never been told by a girl that she "loved" me, nor have I ever said it to a girl. I'm quite pedantic with the word and beleive it should only be used when you mean it, and she assured me she does love me. This is rather daunting to think that someone who has known me a pretty short amount of time feels that way about me. What's even more frightening is that I don't feel the same way, at all.
I suppose I can finally empathise with those who stalk people and fall in love with them without really knowing them, and the other party is completely oblivious to this. I always though love would be something that came mutually from both parties, but I guess that isn't the case.
I'm not sure if I should feel bad about this, but I really do. I dislike hurting people, but I think I did the right thing to end it before she went skitzo and came off the pill and got pregnant to have the child she's oh-so-desperate to have.
Goes to show that you can be all mature and grown-up but still be a child yourself in some respects.
I'm still a child, I guess, but I like the security and lack of morning sickness it brings.
> Thanks Deathskitten, you've not emailed me in a while :-(
sorry :-) been kinda busy, new job, new bloke etc.
so how u doing?
Still going to see the Manics?
It's really hard, didn't get out of bed today until 6 at night then spent most of my day lying on the sofa. Should've done work I guess. D'oh! The thing I'm finding really hard is that we both know and admit to each other that we still love each other. But he broke up with me because he felt being in a relationship right now didn't give him enough time to do other things.
Sigh...at least I'm not turning into a bunny boiler heh.
> So you're still having sex with this girl that said she's in love with
> you even though you're not with her at all, wants a baby with you,
> and who you knowingly sleep with when you know she's mentally
> unstable?
>
> You fool.
OMG U NO ME SO WHELL!!!11
No, I didnt have sex with her, I just assumed the word 'handjob' wouldnt beat the filter and I didnt want to go into the gory details. It was, in essence, a farewell thing. I'm not going to be seeing her any more in a relationship-esque context, just perhaps in groups of friends. I'm pretty much decided to "be with" the Wakefield lass. She makes me happy and isn't crazy.
Oh, and yes, I'm a fool.
Calling you a fool doesn't cover half of what you should be called!
You fool.
I'm off to Wakefield to see t'other lass today.
I'm so bad. :-)