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This isn’t some craftily worded little parody or a creative piece of writing, I’m actually leaving the forums. I know lately I’ve been the malignant little tumour and done nothing of much use around here except be ‘controversial’ and annoy people – for this I am sorry. Lately I haven’t been pleasant to be around at all. Truth be told I’m depressed – not in a trendy gothic way, in a real haunting way. There’s not much in my life that makes me happy, in fact I’m struggling to find a simple example.
Nothing is wrong with my life, I think I’m just sick of the same routine. Wake up, go to school, learn, homework, essays. My plan is to gain perspective. See life from a different side, change parts of my life that I’m not happy with, and it somehow seems wasteful posting on an Internet forum when I should be learning life skills and stuff that I really know nothing about.
I’ve gone on and on about wanting to be a writer but I don’t think that will make me happy. This kind of messes up my future plans because my university plans are all set – however I’m starting to realise that perhaps this isn’t all that important to have a plan, I’m just going to take things as they come – try and enjoy life for once. Enjoying life is something I haven’t done for quite some time now. I know I’m not a particularly pleasant person but I’m going to try and get my piece of enjoyment from life. Maybe it’s something we’re all entitled to.
I’ve basically come to realise that I’m a very unbalanced person – either I’ll be happy or depressed – there’s no real equilibrium for me. I finally admitted my situation to a ‘real’ person, my mum. I told her everything about how I am unhappy with life, that I’m a confused little boy with no real plans or ideas and that I am pretty much depressed to the point of considering killing myself. She’s going to take my to the doctors, she thinks they can help me with medicine or something. Maybe balance me out somehow. I always knew I was unbalanced and that I wasn’t like other people but I didn’t know I was this bad. Since I’ve told my mum my family have treated me like I’m seriously ill, telling me I can “talk to them about anything” and they “just want to do what’s best for me”
I hope I don’t end up in a ward in a straightjacket eating all my meals through straws because I’m not allowed near cutlery. I don’t think I’d like that.
So, is this goodbye forever? Perhaps. Perhaps not. I need to sort my life out and that involved changing aspects of my life – and sitting at a computer nearly every night isn’t such a great achievement. The way I’ve been going lately I’ve been looking at a banning anyway and I doubt I’d have returned if that happened, again. So whilst I’m not banned here’s my little farewell. I’ve made something of a big deal about it – to be perfectly honest because it is a big deal for me. These forums have been a part of my life for nigh on 4 years and up-and-leaving isn’t the easiest thing in the world.
For the times I have had I am grateful. I remember fondly the early days – the spoofs and the constant parodies of stuff. I remember gaining an interest in writing due to the stuff I’ve seen here, something which has probably changed my means of self expression forever. I’ve talked to people here with fantastic outlooks on life, then again I’ve talked to some utter idiots.
I don’t know what my standing in the popularity stakes is at the moment, nor do I really care any more. Craving acceptance from Internet people is no longer on my agenda. I hope, however, that as I leave it is a fond farewell and not a good riddance.
A few of you are still on my msn list and when I am online (which will not be as much) I will gladly chat to you. I’m not trying to sever links I’ve made, just to change my life and be happy.
I’ll leave you with a quote that has offered me a reasonable level of comfort over the years.
“Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know”
- Ernest Hemmingway
Nothing is wrong with my life, I think I’m just sick of the same routine. Wake up, go to school, learn, homework, essays. My plan is to gain perspective. See life from a different side, change parts of my life that I’m not happy with, and it somehow seems wasteful posting on an Internet forum when I should be learning life skills and stuff that I really know nothing about.
I’ve gone on and on about wanting to be a writer but I don’t think that will make me happy. This kind of messes up my future plans because my university plans are all set – however I’m starting to realise that perhaps this isn’t all that important to have a plan, I’m just going to take things as they come – try and enjoy life for once. Enjoying life is something I haven’t done for quite some time now. I know I’m not a particularly pleasant person but I’m going to try and get my piece of enjoyment from life. Maybe it’s something we’re all entitled to.
I’ve basically come to realise that I’m a very unbalanced person – either I’ll be happy or depressed – there’s no real equilibrium for me. I finally admitted my situation to a ‘real’ person, my mum. I told her everything about how I am unhappy with life, that I’m a confused little boy with no real plans or ideas and that I am pretty much depressed to the point of considering killing myself. She’s going to take my to the doctors, she thinks they can help me with medicine or something. Maybe balance me out somehow. I always knew I was unbalanced and that I wasn’t like other people but I didn’t know I was this bad. Since I’ve told my mum my family have treated me like I’m seriously ill, telling me I can “talk to them about anything” and they “just want to do what’s best for me”
I hope I don’t end up in a ward in a straightjacket eating all my meals through straws because I’m not allowed near cutlery. I don’t think I’d like that.
So, is this goodbye forever? Perhaps. Perhaps not. I need to sort my life out and that involved changing aspects of my life – and sitting at a computer nearly every night isn’t such a great achievement. The way I’ve been going lately I’ve been looking at a banning anyway and I doubt I’d have returned if that happened, again. So whilst I’m not banned here’s my little farewell. I’ve made something of a big deal about it – to be perfectly honest because it is a big deal for me. These forums have been a part of my life for nigh on 4 years and up-and-leaving isn’t the easiest thing in the world.
For the times I have had I am grateful. I remember fondly the early days – the spoofs and the constant parodies of stuff. I remember gaining an interest in writing due to the stuff I’ve seen here, something which has probably changed my means of self expression forever. I’ve talked to people here with fantastic outlooks on life, then again I’ve talked to some utter idiots.
I don’t know what my standing in the popularity stakes is at the moment, nor do I really care any more. Craving acceptance from Internet people is no longer on my agenda. I hope, however, that as I leave it is a fond farewell and not a good riddance.
A few of you are still on my msn list and when I am online (which will not be as much) I will gladly chat to you. I’m not trying to sever links I’ve made, just to change my life and be happy.
I’ll leave you with a quote that has offered me a reasonable level of comfort over the years.
“Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know”
- Ernest Hemmingway
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Ah ha, you make me laugh son, i'll give you that.
cookie monster wrote:
> poke wrote:
> I'm a member of Mensa
>
> ...
No wonder you're 4th on the top posters/spammers list if you're going to do pointless posts like that.
> poke wrote:
> I'm a member of Mensa
>
> ...
No wonder you're 4th on the top posters/spammers list if you're going to do pointless posts like that.
poke wrote:
> I'm a member of Mensa
...
> I'm a member of Mensa
...
I wouldn't worry, you're not intelligent.
Awwww don't cry, I'm only kidding.
Awwww don't cry, I'm only kidding.
hope this cheers someone up... it's a quote from witch-king in general chat:
>I went to my kid brother's friend's birthday party to pick him up >yesterday (he's 5). They had a clown, who was about to leave. They were >all crying and asking for one more trick. So he said, "What's the magic >word?" And like 5 of them said "homosexual!"
I love kids...
>I went to my kid brother's friend's birthday party to pick him up >yesterday (he's 5). They had a clown, who was about to leave. They were >all crying and asking for one more trick. So he said, "What's the magic >word?" And like 5 of them said "homosexual!"
I love kids...
*hides in a corner* from the poster below
Good luck Paradox...
Good luck Paradox...
1stly... I've found that a life without God sucks
2ndly... if he's quit the forum who's to say he's even reading this?
just a thought
2ndly... if he's quit the forum who's to say he's even reading this?
just a thought
I'm a member of Mensa, we call you people "Normies" ;D
lcarus wrote:
> “Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know”
> - Ernest Hemmingway
>
> Tsk, obviously he took a blind eye (no pun intended) to those who had
> both.
Wouldn't you say that most of the time, ignorant people are happier because they don't worry about the problems around them?
> “Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know”
> - Ernest Hemmingway
>
> Tsk, obviously he took a blind eye (no pun intended) to those who had
> both.
Wouldn't you say that most of the time, ignorant people are happier because they don't worry about the problems around them?
Grix Thraves wrote:
> Take all the time you need, but if you're going to start trying to
> cope with depression, I wouldn't start cutting things out of your
> life. Moderation is never bad, but you've nothing to really lose or
> gain by posting here, except as a small outlet.
I'm agreeing with the above, the last thing you need is too much time to think, unless you fill the gap and keep busy you'll be left with a big SR shaped hole and only your thoughts for company.
> Take all the time you need, but if you're going to start trying to
> cope with depression, I wouldn't start cutting things out of your
> life. Moderation is never bad, but you've nothing to really lose or
> gain by posting here, except as a small outlet.
I'm agreeing with the above, the last thing you need is too much time to think, unless you fill the gap and keep busy you'll be left with a big SR shaped hole and only your thoughts for company.
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