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The though of dying and being forgotten suffocates me. Some people are quite content to live out their life in relative happiness, die and then be forgotten. I want to leave behind me a legacy. I want people to read something I have written and for it to speak volumes to them. I want to make a difference to the lives of people; but I do not know how.
I sit here at my computer most nights with a blank word document open, wanting to begin my masterpiece. Longing for my fingers to spring to life and begin tapping down the jumbles mass of emotion, creativity and vitriol that is my thumping unconscious in a legible fashion. I keep a pen and paper by my bedside in case a dream clarifies what it is I am meant to write about. What I am meant to bring to the world that I feel is going to be so important. If I were a spiritual person I would probably say it was my destiny to convey this message that sits encoded in the back of my mind, always a few inches from the tip of my proverbial tongue; but so far it hasn’t made itself clear enough to scribble down on paper.
My jumbled assortment of poetry, discourses and stories each hold an element of what I am trying to reveal, but the big picture is far from complete. It pains me to think that I may never discover what it is I feel the need to express so badly. I have tried philosophising, stabbing in the dark at huge issues such as the meaning of life or the size of the universe. Issues I feel uncouth of someone of my education to even ponder with any degree of seriousness. But I will continue to explore every issue under the sun until I probe deep enough into my psyche to uncover the message I have to offer the world. Something I need to uncover for the sake of my ever failing sanity.
> I
> eagerly await the day you write something creative because I will
> pounce upon it like a pack of wolves.
That was an interesting metaphor.
You could have said, “like a rabid, starved wolf”, but you decided to describe yourself in the plural.
*Ponders*
> Hedfix you should maybe try reading my post before slating it. I don't
> understand it? You tool. I said at the bottom that all his messages
> are easy to comprehend and all Paradox does is try and dress it up
> with big words to give the illusion of deep thought and intelligence.
>
>
> I've been reading some of these posts and they are shocking. Poetry
> is meant to be pretentious? Oh my god, do you have an education? I
> agree that sometimes simple words aren't enough to convey emotions
> and so on but there aren't always big words to convey them either.
> It's all about how you use them to articulate yourself. Paradox on
> the other hand seems to just use very long words rigidly sticking to
> patterns of alliteration and rhyme.
>
> I stand by my comments that instead of showing off your vocabularly
> you should try and articulate yourself and express yourself in words
> that are quite capable of expressing great emotions and meaning. You
> just haven't mastered that yet. There will never be a word for
> everything Paradox. It's up to you to use the words available to
> convey your message. Not spew obscure words from the dictionary that
> pretty much everyone knows anyway. It doesn't add anythign to your
> works except the time it takes to read them. The message is still the
> same and because you don't articulate yourself well. It's always
> easilly interpreted and understood.
>
> That's how I view your works. I'm sure so many people here have been
> taken in by your vast vocabulary but when you get past the big words.
> All that's left is a message that could be said in seconds. It boils
> down to very little. I think you need to focus on how to articulate a
> real meaning. Not try and confuse people with words with more than 5
> syllables.
YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I HAVE PLAINLY TRIED TO F**KING SAY TO YOU IN A GENIAL MANNER YOU IGNORANT LITTLE FAG. For that sake of my sanity stop whining on like some puppy trapped in a box about "you could say it in less words". Everything that was ever written can be put in less words. Any poem ever written often can be condensed into a few words or less, but your stupid fickle brain prevents you from understanding this. Wordsworth wrote a sonnet about a London sunrise, packed full of similies and metaphors. He could simply have written "I like the sunrise" but I think his poem surpassed that. Obviously you'd criticise him for it, I mean, it would be more economical to do the latter.
It takes ingenuity to create something, any idiot can criticise it, you're a perfect example of this. You slander my intellegence, saying I merely use large words to make myself look clever when you're far from what I would consider 'clever', you're just a hormonal teenager displacing his anger and frustration on someone else. I eagerly await the day you write something creative because I will pounce upon it like a pack of wolves.
I've been reading some of these posts and they are shocking. Poetry is meant to be pretentious? Oh my god, do you have an education? I agree that sometimes simple words aren't enough to convey emotions and so on but there aren't always big words to convey them either. It's all about how you use them to articulate yourself. Paradox on the other hand seems to just use very long words rigidly sticking to patterns of alliteration and rhyme.
I stand by my comments that instead of showing off your vocabularly you should try and articulate yourself and express yourself in words that are quite capable of expressing great emotions and meaning. You just haven't mastered that yet. There will never be a word for everything Paradox. It's up to you to use the words available to convey your message. Not spew obscure words from the dictionary that pretty much everyone knows anyway. It doesn't add anythign to your works except the time it takes to read them. The message is still the same and because you don't articulate yourself well. It's always easilly interpreted and understood.
That's how I view your works. I'm sure so many people here have been taken in by your vast vocabulary but when you get past the big words. All that's left is a message that could be said in seconds. It boils down to very little. I think you need to focus on how to articulate a real meaning. Not try and confuse people with words with more than 5 syllables.
> It's all true though Kyle and yes, I basically am saying that
> teenagers are generally unable to do anything like you are proposing.
Right, that's why teenagers have made successful careers, traded in stocks and shares and created amazing works of art.
> Especially on the whole meaning of life front. I mean seriously many
> people can spend their entire lives debating that and come to now
> conclusion yet you want to write a book or poems that speak to people
> on that level of deep meaningfulness.
You're going over the top there yourself 'saying things in lines that could be said in a few lines'. I could sum up the above quote simply with "You can't win, don't try" which is a pathetic stance to be taking Cubist even by your standards.
>
> All your writing though does seriously go over the top saying things
> in lines that could be said in a couple of words. It gives the
> illusion of intelligence but really you're just showing us your
> vocabulary. That's it. With all your writing I notice that you try to
> get across something but instead of being more articulate with your
> words you use words that are seldom used in day to day conversation
> and it just seems like you've gone out your way to say something that
> normally could've been said in a paragraph.
You don't understand poetry do you? Artistic licence perhaps? The fact that the simplest word doesn't convey what you need it to?
>
> I thought when you were going to talk about the Sunflower you were
> going to agree with what I said but sadly not. Although it does kind
> of make my point. You see the techniques used to paint that sunflower
> as the most important factor just like see these words as the most
> important factor in your works. I was hoping you'd say that the
> sunflower is a simple thing but the artist achieved a masterful and
> memorable piece of work through it. It wasn't a complicated thing to
> paint. But it lives on, that's what I think you need to focus on.
> Making something simple memorable instead of showing off your
> vocabulary making points that are actually not so hard to comprehend
> or give across any real meaning at all.
I see, so Paradox's writing is too complex for your feeble mind? That's not Paradox's problem: That's yours.
> Oh so now I have a criticism I'm a bad guy. Pfft, take the criticisms
> with compliments you pu$sy:P
Ooh the bad man used an expletive!
Dude I can take criticisms fine, when you criticise my work. When you criticise the entire purpose of an art then it's getting a bit daft.
> overly complex and stylish
> poems that when deciphered 90% of the time could have been said quite
> simply in plain english.
That's the point of ALL poetry.
It's meant to be pretentious.
Then, when you've got that, you can have all the belief in the world in your project. Anyone who doesn't like it is an idiot, and you just need to find someone who'll listen.
I think the best possible mantra to have, is to write for yourself. Write what you want to see, what you want to read, hear about. Something that challenges yourself, your mind and your soul. Easier said than done, sure, but it's a good platform.
You look through all the most successful stuff that's gone on, and you'll find all the directors/writers/artists doing their things for themselves. Except the loony ones who do it for love.