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i don't like the way things are at school, and i don't want to be particularly popular, just someone who can be leaned on by people at times. i hate my character, because i dont show my true colours. im either walking differently to my normal stance to look 'cool' or just doing things i'd probably never do normally. i also get paranoid about people seeing my boxers/pants underneath my trousers.
it's for these reasons i've desperately tried to change my appearance. working out, showering much more than usual, or growing my hair, but nothing really hits the spot. I hate my moles, aswell, and i'm ashamed of this, even though they are only about 2mm thick, they annoy me because they're dotted around my face - about 7 or 8. It's not recently i've been ashamed of my appearance, but the fact that my hormones are about to go berserk has amplified this. whenever i see a girl i know from school (particularly if it's someone i can't help having feelings for), i just wan't to be able to go out and talk, but it's just not gonna happen. i feel like such a fool. And whenever i see a 'popular' lad, it makes me sick, because they're just morons, and i can't get round the way it's turned out, because i'm not a bad person.
Today, i was out in town with my mum and sister (who's 21), and we only wen't there for them to look for another bed for my bro, and me to go to a stationary shop to look for art things, and so they got sidetracked, and looked around tarty women's shops. Then, to my horror i see 4 girls i know from school, and i'm thinking 'oh S***'. they KNEW i were there.
One of the major things i'm ashamed of is my nature. i stay indoors all day, trying to avoid going out, and when i do i get extremely nervous and try to stay out of visibility.
i need help.
> All the popular people at my school are really dumb, they take the mic
> out of clever people. Its kinda wrong but why do they get more
> respect?
This is the nation that regularly puts tv show created bands at #1, that created Big Brother, where little more than 50% even vote and that idolises footballers and celebrities - what do you expect ?
You're not going to be making yourself more popular staying indoors and talking to people on forums. Even though you may be popular with the people you live with and us here at SR, it's the people outside of this little copucosm that you need to see.
I wouldn't bother with all the showering more/ working out/ growing hair thing at the moment, because you'll find that most people (the people worth bothering with anyway) won't care what you look/smell like and also (from what you're post suggested anyway)you're just hitting puberty and now's not a good time to be putting extra stress on your body.
I'd like to say that all this is just hormones and you'll get over it but it's not, and it certainly won't feel like that to you at the moment. you have to work for people to like you, but can do jack-squat and people will hate you so I recommend just talking to people at school, out on the street etcetera. As long as you seem self-secure and honest then people will respect you for that.
As I said before staying at home isn't going to solve the problem. Get out and meet people - start playing a sport, join a club, do something where you can socialise with people.
i don't like the way things are at school, and i don't want to be particularly popular, just someone who can be leaned on by people at times. i hate my character, because i dont show my true colours. im either walking differently to my normal stance to look 'cool' or just doing things i'd probably never do normally. i also get paranoid about people seeing my boxers/pants underneath my trousers.
it's for these reasons i've desperately tried to change my appearance. working out, showering much more than usual, or growing my hair, but nothing really hits the spot. I hate my moles, aswell, and i'm ashamed of this, even though they are only about 2mm thick, they annoy me because they're dotted around my face - about 7 or 8. It's not recently i've been ashamed of my appearance, but the fact that my hormones are about to go berserk has amplified this. whenever i see a girl i know from school (particularly if it's someone i can't help having feelings for), i just wan't to be able to go out and talk, but it's just not gonna happen. i feel like such a fool. And whenever i see a 'popular' lad, it makes me sick, because they're just morons, and i can't get round the way it's turned out, because i'm not a bad person.
Today, i was out in town with my mum and sister (who's 21), and we only wen't there for them to look for another bed for my bro, and me to go to a stationary shop to look for art things, and so they got sidetracked, and looked around tarty women's shops. Then, to my horror i see 4 girls i know from school, and i'm thinking 'oh S***'. they KNEW i were there.
One of the major things i'm ashamed of is my nature. i stay indoors all day, trying to avoid going out, and when i do i get extremely nervous and try to stay out of visibility.
i need help.