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"F.E.A.R"

I'm writing today because it has struck me that the vast majority of us live our lives in fear and I find this rather strange. I'm not talking about the kind of pant-wetting fear that leaves one a meek and quivering wreck with heart palpitations that would be more suited to a field mouse than a human being (I'm sure you know the feeling; I last experienced it when I was about 12 and some Neanderthal in a scruffy school uniform decided that what I really needed was to have face moved about 3 inches across my skull via the means of a sustained beating). I'm talking about the low-grade fear that seems to permeate everybodies life but is so commonplace that we don't even think about it any more.

Let me give you an example; I'm an intelligent person. I'm not being any more arrogant than usual by saying that. However, I'm also very verbose and florid when I speak and that can give the impression that I know more than I actually do. Anyway to cut a long story short, I've been told that many of my work colleagues and casual acquaintances are scared of me. And the reason for this? Well it would appear that they are scared that I will think that they are stupid, and so they will not talk to me or around me as much or as freely as normal.

I find this rather strange. Arrogant I may be, but I'm not so full of myself to think that my opinion matters a damn to most people, so why do certain of my friends feel this way? I'm sure I'm not the only person to have ever experienced this; being a university graduate is an excellent way of putting some non-graduates on the defensive. Being an Oxbridge graduate is a superb way of making non-Oxbridge types feel that they have to prove their intelligence (in fact, now that I come to think of it, I'm guilty of that myself). There can't be much doubt that a lot of seem to have a fear of appearing stupid in some way, but for the life of me I can't figure out why this should be. Is it a childhood thing; do we all still worry about being laughed at by the rest of the class? Or is it a self-esteem issue; we're so riddled with neurosis that we feel that if we know less than another person then we are inferior to them?

Now clearly my perspective on this comes from my own experience, but I'm 100% sure that this isn't the only area of our life that generates hot, dull fear for us. Physical appearance is yet another. I used to have hair of a fairly normal length and so I went about my day generally unnoticed by passing strangers. Then, in a fit of drunken bravado, I shaved my hair off. The very next morning as I was walking to the shops an old lady looked up, saw me approaching, and with a few fearful glances back at me, crossed the street to avoid me. In contrast to that, many moons ago I had *very* long hair. This earned me tuts of disapproval from my parents and their peers, as well as a few beatings from some quite charming gentlemen who, apparently, didn't like "hippies".

The reactions that I've described should be familiar to all of us. Who among us has not felt one's heart race when walking alone and noticing a man who is either big, shaven headed, ferocious looking etc? And yet despite the Daily Mail's attempts to convince us otherwise, random beatings are an incredibly rare occurrence. I personally haven't been hit by or fought with anybody since school, but I still find myself a little nervous if I'm in the situation I just described. I suppose the reason for the fear we may feel for people of a certain appearance is easier to explain than our fear of looking stupid. It's not difficult to think of book, film, or TV examples of the bad guys being big, shaven headed thugs, and so the stereotype is reinforced endlessly and we all continue to feel fear about people we don't even know for no other reason than their appearance. (For the record, I've grown my hair again; I'm getting sick of being looked at like a violent thug who is searching for his next victim).

The final example of this fear is a one that I personally have no experience of. Women mainly experience it but it is by no means exclusive to them. It is particularly prevalent when gaggles of women are on a night out. I'm referring of course to how threatened many women feel by another woman whom they perceive as more attractive than them. Lest you be in any doubt, watch the look on a lady's face as an attractive women glides past her. Believe me, sometimes I've seen hatred in their eyes! As a further example of this, a friend of mine was talking about an old schoolmate of his. She was rather good looking, to the extent that she is now a part-time model and is in a relationship with a fitness instructor (and also part-time model). And the reaction of on of the women who was listening? "B***h!".

Now I don't mean to belittle anyone here (after all, of the three types of daily fear that I've described, this one is by far and away the funniest...) but aren't we all being a little...well, insecure about ourselves? Why can't we be happy with the way we look, or the way we think? Why do people feel the need to be the cleverest and best-looking person out of everybody? Is it because we are striving to better ourselves, or trying to pull others down to our level? It's food for thought anyway.

If I agreed fully to that, then I would agree with the manner with which Americans use the word "irony".

I don't.

Insane Bartender wrote:
> So, because people have been saying it wrong for hundreds of years, it
> makes it right?
>
> No.

So you wouldn't agree with the idea that the usage of a word defines its meaning?

So, because people have been saying it wrong for hundreds of years, it makes it right?

No.

I already explained why it's done that way, IB, get over it. It's just said because people have been saying it for hundreds of years.

The proper idea of a public school is that it's a public run service, ie run by the government.

It's just a common misconception that you have to pay for "public schools" when in fact, by definition, the schools you pay for are private.

It's like the difference between NHS and Bupa. NHS is run by the government, it is available to everyone, hence it is a public service. BUPA is not a public service, it is available to anyone who wants to pay for it, hence it is a private service...

A public school is one you have to pay fees for. I'm surprised you 'intelligent' people didn't know that. It's stupidly named, I know, but that's just one of life's little mysteries.

Insane Bartender wrote:
> Public school = state school = free
> Private school = one you pay to go to.

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It comes from when schools first appeared in this country. They were public, because ANYONE could go... providing they could pay for it.

Not like the government picked who went and who didn't.

VenomByte wrote:
> He who fights and runs away, lives to fight another day...

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Unless they run after him and break his face.

Me? It's all about boxing, baby. Although I wouldn't pull a boxer's stance in a fight, I'd do jabs with my left then crack 'em with my right. Need to work on my blocking though, it's way too easy to hit me, and you never know who's hard or not just by looking at them. I shy away from conflict, unless they're blatantly full of hot air and couldn't beat up a five year old.

I still laugh at the term "public school" being used in place of "private school" which is what it's usually in reference to.

Public school = state school = free
Private school = one you pay to go to.

Oh well.

Insane Bartender wrote:
> Fencing was no fun. I was the only left handed person there, and by
> default the best fencer.

I found it to be excellent fun, for precisely that reason. In few other sports is being left handed such a huge advantage. However, when two left handed fencers compete against each other, it is quite possibly the most unglamorous and uncoordinated example of fencing you'll ever see.

True, it isn't exaclty useful in a brawl (unless you happen to be in a medieval war museum), but it does make you impressively fleet-footed.

He who fights and runs away, lives to fight another day...