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"Self Harm!"

I don't want to read posts saying how wrong, because i think that is so obvious.

Many years ago i use to harm myself, i was hurting and i was always feeling down. I had cuts all over myself mainly over my arms. It got to the point where i have cut to deeply and too much. Problems i couldnt solve my problems and happiness was hard to find, deaths, illnesses, accidents everyhting i see and heard i was scared of. I just sat in my room and destroyed myself because it was something to do, and it stop me from thinking about all the things i was worried about/ scared of.

Mum and stepdad eventually found out what i was doing and tried to talk to me about it. It made me do it even more because i didnt have to hide it. Then they took me to my doctor because she was the only person i ever use to talk to. I spoke about all my problems what was troubleing me and slowly stopped doing it. I think back and realise now how pointless it was but at the time it felt right. I wasnt satisfied till i saw seeping of my blood.

sometimes when i am really depressed i want to do it again but i have so much more in my life now.

Has anyone been through the same situation!

I might have stopped years ago, but im still scarred* for life!

i was sitting in my gcse history class and i was down realy down lower then i have ever been befor, everything was annoying me and getting me down. so i took the sissors and slid them over my wrists thinking aobut really doing it but then i thought we all have downers so i stoped.

2 days later i was sent out of my P.E lesson for coffing as i was stud in cut grass knee high and have hay fever and i did not want to suffer later so i choffed and sneezed so my teacher told me to go away for coffing to loud. i thogut so bad about topping myself. really badly as some people it stops the stress and its bliss but i pulled through my feelings.

Woah, I wonder what the collective of "self harmers" is... seems like we've got one here.

"A slitting of macochists"

Jesus Christ - you totally misunderstood what I wrote.
Didn't even see it that way myself.
I apologise very muchly so, that's not what I meant - never would say such a thing. Sorry.

I meant that self-harm is usually a way of taking control when your life seems totally out of control, and were you scared of loosing the control it gave you.

But you didn't even mean scared.
Sorry again, no offence meant.

Message to self: write what you mean

I used to cut my arms but I don't anymore. Very little point I realised. Ok it did put everything into perspective whenever I did it but now I'm trying to surround myself with good people and just have fun in life instead of getting down about it and wasting it cutting myself and stuff.

@ng3l wrote:
> Flockhart wrote:
> Do you feel sometimes that they are there to remind you, whether to
> stop or just as something that means it's always on your mind, are
> the scars a good thing ?
>
> Well i havent got many scars, the scars that are there however remind
> me just how far in life i have come and how i have got over most
> things that have stood in my way. They show me just how unhappy i was
> and that ive got control over it now. There is a few more things that
> are getting me down but i get by and they will get resolved with
> time.

I'm glad youve got such a possitive outlook, i think i would look at them and they would be a constant reminder of what i could do if i gave in, but i'm glad you can look at them as a sign of progression.

Flockhart wrote:
> Do you feel sometimes that they are there to remind you, whether to
> stop or just as something that means it's always on your mind, are
> the scars a good thing ?

Well i havent got many scars, the scars that are there however remind me just how far in life i have come and how i have got over most things that have stood in my way. They show me just how unhappy i was and that ive got control over it now. There is a few more things that are getting me down but i get by and they will get resolved with time.

@ng3l wrote:
> sometimes when i am really depressed i want to do it again but i have
> so much more in my life now.

And that should be what keeps you from doing it again, it's no longer just you who will be affected.

> Has anyone been through the same situation!

Cutting myself no, although i know plenty who do or have done, god help me for admitting this on here, but i seem to look for another form of pain as a distraction.

> I might have stopped years ago, but im still scarred* for life!

Do you feel sometimes that they are there to remind you, whether to stop or just as something that means it's always on your mind, are the scars a good thing ?

i used to cut myself but i made sure that no one found out about it. i haven't cut myself for along time but i still get depressed.

I had a friend once, i say once because she moved school and then told everyone that she was friends with that she never liked them. Any way, she used to cut herself in the arms and even got to the point of writing stupid things in her arm. Her best friends eventually made her see that it was not solving her problems, so she stopped. The problem was, for months she had to use some kind of anti-scar pads and cream to try and get rid of all the scars. It worked a little but it never goes away.

@ng3l wrote:
> Has anyone been through the same situation

I haven't been through cutting myself, but I have been pretty seriously depressed. Its a very tough time, and you can't see yourself getting out of it. I just came home and was too exhausted to do anything but lay in my bed and think about how pointless my life had been. My existance was torn. I think what had triggered it was the handful of events that were unfolding in front of me at that time, my brother had cancer, mum had a breakdown, and grandfather died. I wasn't getting on too great at school either.

Glad I am to say that I am pretty well out of that now, and despite my brother ecently being re-diagnosed, I am now much more mature, and much more in control of my life than before. I hope that you get on well; I wouldn't wish self harm upon anybody.