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"My Ex Girlfriend.."

This girl I was seeing about two years ago for a couple of months left school after getting GCSEs and I hadn't really heard much from her since (the breakup wasnt too good so we didnt really talk a whole lot)

Anyway I found out today she's got a 4 month old kid.

I dont know why but this kind of really shocked me. Not just that she's "another stupid teenager wrecking her life" but because she was close to me and, well, I could be a daddy now if we hadn't broken up.

I know life is one giant "what if" question, but this just kind of meant something to me.

On another note my friend (he's 16) is seeing a 21 year old woman who beleives he is a biologist (some people eh), and I got a Boxcar racer album today for £2.97, and 4 t-shirts.

Life is good.

Notorious Biggles wrote:
> What about if it was an "it"?

Hmmm... Biggles Jr

Lindgren wrote:
> Notorious Biggles wrote:
> Lindgren wrote:
> I could have been the mother of an 8 year old now...
>
> I'm scared to ask. But?
>
> Short story i dont want to tell.

In thinking about you age, I'm fairly sure I don't want to know either. I suspect it is one of those few things that still makes me angry.

What about if it was an "it"?

Notorious Biggles wrote:
> Lindgren wrote:
> I could have been the mother of an 8 year old now...
>
> I'm scared to ask. But?

Short story i dont want to tell.

Icarus wrote:
> What would you have called him/her/it at the time if you were?

If it was a him: David
If it was a her: Ashlyn

Lindgren wrote:
> I could have been the mother of an 8 year old now...

I'm scared to ask. But?

I know what you mean. It is just strange and slightly saddening to see some one who you once cared for so much, maybe even actually loved, with their life a mess.

I saw an ex not that long ago. Her life was a bit of car crash as well. OK, she never had a kid, but ever since we split she's had waster after waster of a guy. She now has a fairly dead end job, on bad terms with her family... no longer friends with the best friend she had all her life. In short she has lost all the things that bring happiness, and me.

It hurt to see that. Even after we split, I still wanted her to be happy, to be successful and to just enjoy life. But no, in the game of life she seems to be losing at the moment. For a while I wondered what if. If we were still together, would she be the happy, radiant person she once was?

The answer would probably have been yes as well. That makes things a bit worse. But then I realised I was blaming myself in a way for her life. I shouldn't do that, she makes her own decisions. It isn't my fault if she screws up.

Still, it was a shame.

What would you have called him/her/it at the time if you were?

I could have been the mother of an 8 year old now...

it's strange the way people change over time.