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"Feelings"

Lately my feelings have felt different.

Rather than having one feeling at a time, I'm always swamped by several at a time. And whereas I used to be able to understand what I was feeling and profit from it, I can't do that anymore.

And each feeling that I have is blunter than before, as if I'm only pretending that feeling, trying it on for size. Nothing seems to get through to my heart the way it did before.

Its like a numbness. Like when you have been lying on your hand and the feeling all but goes from it, when you touch something, you know that you are touching it, but you can't feel it in the same way as you can usually.

The only thing I can feel is a sense of meloncholy, Its as if the meloncholy surrounds my heart and soul like armour not letting any other emothion pirce through.

I know what I should be feeling, but that feeling, doesn't feel quite right.

Insane Bartender wrote:

> bollards. Let off steam.

Well if I'm boring then you can all ignore me :D

Rosalind wrote:
> I used to be able to see more in the world that just myself. Now it
> seems I am all that I can focus on. Its not good. And I don't make a
> good topic of conversation so I ought not to discuss myself so much,
> or you will all get VERY bored.
>
> Its probably best if I don't post so much

bollards. Let off steam.

Goatboy wrote:
> Drugs help.
>
> Bill Hicks "Not all drugs are good. No...some of them are
> great"

I bet if I went to the doctor I could get free drugs

I used to be able to see more in the world that just myself. Now it seems I am all that I can focus on. Its not good. And I don't make a good topic of conversation so I ought not to discuss myself so much, or you will all get VERY bored.

Its probably best if I don't post so much

I feel like jayne in coupling......

"me me me me meeeeee"

Drugs help.

Bill Hicks "Not all drugs are good. No...some of them are great"

Goatboy wrote:
> Buy some nu-metal and have a soundtrack to your alienation!

Like I need anymore. I've got CDs full of the stuff. I think I've gone of it.

I don't think there is an easy answer to it. Unless its drugs

Buy some nu-metal and have a soundtrack to your alienation!

Failing that, find something about yourself you like and concentrate on that.

Hmmm.

I no longer have what anyone could class as a "circle of friends". So I'm probably in the same boat, or the one next to it perhaps...

I don't socialise very often anymore, and when I do, I feel like I'm being made to feel out of place.

A little aside.

What I crave is a snse of belonging to a group.
At university I belonged to a group of friends you did nearly everything together, but of course we all went our seperate ways.

I feel as if I need the validation that you can only get by people approving of you.

Insane Bartender wrote:
> Rosalind wrote:
> If you were that bad wouldn't you be screwing someone over?
>
> I'm getting paid £15 an hour to chat on the internet...

Oh. Well I'm getting paid (a much smaller amount), to do the same.
Am I a bad pperson. :S