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I've noticed something about myself lately. I'm stronger. Not in a physical way (although my muscular form is indeed impressive), I mean inside me. An emotional way.
When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:
*We walk into school for our second year with her*
Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.
And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.
I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.
I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.
Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.
Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.
However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.
Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:
"Yagosarner?"
"What?" I replied, confused.
"Yagosarner?"
"Sorry?"
Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:
"No, and you haven't got any brains either."
Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D
To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!
I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.
I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
PS-For those of you know me well, I hope that you're interested in reading my full MGS2 review which will be up in FOG Prime at some point during the next week. Strange how a mere video game can mean so much to me. I know most of you won't care, but a few will know that I've been bantering on about MGS2 since I finished MGS, and so I hope they will want to read my final thoughts on something I'm so passionate about.
the turtles? ha! me and Mojojojo laugh in thier faces.
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Yep, we own the turtles
We shall suceed where Shredder failed every week!
this server is doing my head in.
it keeps going off and on and saying that i havent done stuff and loads of other things.
the turtles? ha! me and Mojojojo laugh in thier faces.
im going off for now.
the server on this site is doing my head in so i'll see you lot later.
peace
> Lodge wrote:
> Great post Ant!:D
I have notice at school that there is
> like a divide of
> people, if that makes sense, and that there are only
> certain people that can
> give it lair to others. And if someone that isn't
> 'Allowed' to will then get
> even more lair back. Its a strange world at our
> school, probably the same at all
> the other schools, i'm sure you know and
> i can probably guess who the lairy
> little ******* are.
I know where your
> coming from.:)
by the name of hercules (a greek exclamation/oath) this fool
> is sticking to the original topic
Well i don't read the post and then read everything that has then been written replying to this post!
That would take ages, silly boy!
I thought Hercules was a good guy...
Or are you his
> evil twin?
Anyway, we sure have hijacked this thread and made it our own,
> haven't we?
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Oh yeah,
Im supposed to be a good guy arent i? oh well. Ive let out the truth.
Indeed we have hijacked this thread.
Its all ours now!
hhehehe
I thought Hercules was a good guy...
Or are you his
> evil twin?
Anyway, we sure have hijacked this thread and made it our own,
> haven't we?
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Oh yeah,
Im supposed to be a good guy arent i? oh well. Ive let out the truth.
Indeed we have hijacked this thread.
Its all ours now!
hhehehe
> Hercules! wrote:
i see,
hhhhhmmmmmmm,
want to team up and take over the
> world?
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I thought Hercules was a good guy...
Or are you his
> evil twin?
Anyway, we sure have hijacked this thread and made it our own,
> haven't we?
The turtles will foil your evil scheme.
i see,
hhhhhmmmmmmm,
want to team up and take over the world?
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I thought Hercules was a good guy...
Or are you his evil twin?
Anyway, we sure have hijacked this thread and made it our own, haven't we?
Yes, I'm in Townsville jail right now, with black
> eyes after my last encounter with the girls
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i see,
hhhhhmmmmmmm,
want to team up and take over the world?
by the name of hercules (a greek exclamation/oath) this fool
> is sticking to the original topic
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oh yeah,
my bad,
well ive said what ive wanted to say on this matter so im happy enough to talk about other things which this topic has drifted into.
ah my good friend MoJoJoJo,
How nice that we meet again,
How has your adventures with the powerpuff girls been lately?
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Yes, I'm in Townsville jail right now, with black eyes after my last encounter with the girls