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"What song would you like played at your funeral?"

I used to think the theme from Metal Gear 2 would be a good tune to go out on but now I'm thinking 'Days' by The Kinks.

Clazon wrote:
> They just give my brother drugs to do that for him.

I'd much prefer to keep off them. If I can control it myself, hurray, that's fine. If it gets to the point where I can't, ok, I admit defeat. But I'd much quicker kill myself than intentionally hurt anyone.

I went on the drugs for a while and I felt absolutely numb, that's no life. It sucked me of my imagination and I'm only just beginning to recover. The only good thing about them was I managed to put a bit of weight on, and they DID actually help me sort out my mind enough to come off them again and feel much much more in control and clear.

I hope your brother's ok though, I wish I knew more about this all so I could actually help people, but can't get my head around it.

I'd invite loads of paedo's and then have my song be the ice cream truck theme.

You have no idea how annoying that person was. I actually told him I wanted to burn his face off, and then he actually shut up so all was good.

Tom says he was a "complete f**king c*ckjockey". So I'm not the only one.

Oz-Turk wrote:
> Drowning Pool - Bodies

Choose incompetent pallbearers then.

FinalFantasyFanatic wrote:
> Do you think you'd be happier or more content or whichever positive
> emotion you like if you weren't MPD, or whatever it's called.
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> But I don't suppose you can say anyone is the 'real you' can you?

There is a "real Grix" that has remained consistent through the time I've known him, regardless of the down time. Was going to mention something about mind control, but I think he did a fine job enough of it. :P He seems to be doing very well as of late. Just the face burning thing that's a little worrying.. :)~

My song..Jewel ~ Angel Standing By

Oh yeah, topic.

I'll get Radiohead to come in and play True Love Waits for me

Grix Thraves wrote:
"I'm kinda a bit afraid of realising that burning someone's face off is a bad idea."

NOT a bad idea. I'm afraid of realising it's NOT a bad idea.

They just give my brother drugs to do that for him.

I really have no idea if I'd be happier or unhappier whatever. As far as I'm concerned, it's me, so how do I cure 'me'?

The main problem I think is I'm a bit of a control freak because of it. I'm ok enough to snap myself out of it and take a step back when I realise, but controlling emotions, wants, needs, etc wears me out.

As for the real me, no matter what 'state' 'identity' whatever I'm in, it's all me. It doesn't matter if I'm the nicest skippy flower picking poet one moment, or wanting to burn someone's face off the next (happened in the time period of five minutes last Saturday), it's all me. Unfortunately I have to control myself from burning people's faces off and also tend to control my flower picking poetness because of it too. It's er.. far too big for me to concentrate on.

I'd love to just say "ah, sod it, I'll just relax", but I'm kinda a bit afraid of realising that burning someone's face off is a bad idea. And unfortunately the only experience I have of um.. 'letting go' resulted in me nearly killing someone with an iron bar.

So it's either suicide or constant control. Which isn't the greatest of things to have to do every day but it's probably better than being dead. I think. Or maybe that's my psychotic instincts talking and I'm really better off dead!!!11kfldafksma

Naturally, I've decided to give up thinking too much.

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Funeral:
Serious- Wind of change, by The Scorpions
or- Thoughts of a Dying Atheist, by Muse
or- Back in Black, by AC/DC (:D)