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"Motivationless"

Really reached the pinnacle of not caring and I'm wathcing myself decline, and it doesn't even bother me I don't think. I feel sad, like when you hear about a hooker getting a fork in the eye or something, but I dont truly care.

I cant type any more, I've had to re-corect the last sentences about 11 times because I'm such a spaz I cant even do somehting simple anymore.

Been getting D's in my work I've handed in lately, not due to not trying, I've tried a decent amount, just my best isn't as good as my best used to be.

I've been drinking a lot lately, thankfully not lonesome drinking, because that would be marginally worse, but I've been spending all my cash on money and gambling.

I hate to see what I've become, but at the same time I care so little than I carry on, without any desire the acheive anything much anymore.

It's not the being crap that bugs me, it's that I know I should want to be better than this, but I really dont. I just feel empty. It's liberating in a way.

I actually don't even know why I'm typing this, if I don't care why the hell will anyone else?

Um, thats it. Finito.

:'(

FinalFantasyFanatic wrote:
> Don't make me call you 'emo-kid', now.
> You wouldn't like that.

No I wouldn't and I'm not blaming the hardships on lower-middle-class whiteboy life for me feeling crap, I'm blaming myself. I'm not boo-hooing about it.

Your mum was out.

Did you pick up a dirty ho, Hedfix?

Stuff done.

More info soon.

I went to school today, after a two week build up.

I am also interested in what drugs you take Paradox.

I usually take a couple of Sudafed in the morning to get my senses going and after that I am knocking back glass after glass of ginger ale. Until I go home and beat my wife.

Tis a fun life.

Don't make me call you 'emo-kid', now.
You wouldn't like that.

Hedfix wrote:
> I did some stuff today after a two week build up...

How goes the job hunting?

I have been through a patch like this recently, minus the drugs and alcohol which im not allowed because of my illness, but I wouldnt be on the drugs anyway.

Basically I've been ill lately and I was finding it hard to care about anything else, but I snapped out of it and am now getting my ass into gear.

I'm glad I have because I my grades were starting to slip etc, but Im managing to give a damn now and concentrate more.

You should be ok soon, bouncebackability etc.

FinalFantasyFanatic wrote:
> Suck it up, Kyz, you big mopey poof.

Gah you're right.

Just stupid angst.

Everything is angst.

I'll re-attach my balls and carry on.

Thanks for that.