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"AAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!"

I felt the need to scream very loudly today, and no, it wasn't like that for all you dirty minded teens! Thankfully though I supressed the need, which is just as well as I was standing in the middle of a very crowded O'Connell St. But it scared me in a way. Ive been becoming more aware in the last few days of the sheer anger building up inside of me, and this anger is being aimed squarely at myself for the most part. Im laying a massive guilt trip on myself and seriously beating myself up inside, and all i want right now is to calm myself down a bit, or a lot, and feel like Im grabbing some control of my emotions back again.

Oh, well, my little rant over.......for now.

Who can remember when my birthday was ... ?

English_Bloke wrote:
> Let me know if I push too far though, Tim.
*****

I know you're joking, but let me answer seriously: because I can vent when I need to (whether it be just a string of swear words, a punch or a withering look) it's virtually impossible for me to be offended. In fact there are only two people in existence who could (and do) p*** me off: my mother and my ex-missus.

Timmargh wrote:
> Screaming and letting out anger and frustration is a good thing,
> provided you don't hurt yourself or anyone else in the process! Have
> you got access to a punch bag or a collection of feather pillows you
> could beat the crap out of ... ?

That's nothing. I've decapitated a stress toy.

Azul wrote:
> woz irt cuz teh wai i spelur/!3/

No, it's more the high-pitched voice what done it.

Let me know if I push too far though, Tim.

*Pushes*

*Watches Tim disappear over the horizon*

Oh testicles, I thought you had the brake on.

English_Bloke wrote:
> I thought you were younger then that

woz irt cuz teh wai i spelur/!3/

Screaming and letting out anger and frustration is a good thing, provided you don't hurt yourself or anyone else in the process! Have you got access to a punch bag or a collection of feather pillows you could beat the crap out of ... ?

I used to bottle my feelings up - mainly about my disability - and everyone thought everything was peachy ... until I had an "episode" - something snapped one day (I have no memory of what happened) and apparently I did a lot of screaming, wailing and gnashing my teeth. I had to be sedated and was referred to a psychiatrist (or psychologist - can't remember which) who I saw three times a week for 2 months.

The result is me being able to talk, joke and take the p*** about myself and my disability, and being able to vent my anger and frustrations when I need to. That was 12 years ago and it's helped me ever since.

I thought you were younger then that

You're like a month and four days older than me, then.

Mine is 06/11/1988, but I wouldn' texpect any of you to care or remember. =D