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"I might have a problem..."

...but I'm afraid to admit it.

My Parents and Girlfriend have all said I look 'down'. My Boss 'pulled me in' for a chat as concerns were raised by colleagues that I wasn't 100%, not all there, vacant. I can't be bothered with anything most of the time now. The only highlight in my life at the moment is getting my new car - a bit sad really. Retail therapy isn't cutting it like usual and I'm not eating as much as I normally do.

Could I be depressed/stressed? I despise my job, only staying for the money. The slightest things are annoying me and I'm just bottling my anger up inside. I feel the need to lash out almost all the time but again, keep it inside. I can never stay happy for too long, as I just start getting all negative again.

I'm not sleeping properly either. I finally went to the Doctors yesterday about it as I fell asleep at work on Tuesday. He gave me something to help me sleep at night but I doubt it'll work.

Worst of all, suicide has crossed my mind - BUT ONLY CROSSED IT, I've never given it any proper thought.

I don't know what's going on with me. I know there is something wrong, but I'm reluctant to admit I have a problem. The Doc asked me if I was Stressed or Depressed. I replied 'I don't think I am' - I feel that if I open up, people will think I'm some kind of Hypochondriac. I don't trust anyone. I feel they're all out to make me screw up.

This is probably the only place I can get my feelings across. I'll never see any of you lot, so I don't feel threatened by you. Feel free to ask questions/give comments, but I'm primarily writing this here for the satisfaction of knowing I have opened up in some way. The first step so to speak.

Finally, did any of that make any sense?!?

ßulle†† wrote:
> As for the tablets and counsellors, I would just see them as 'helping
> hands', I know it's up to me to get myself out of this hole.

Well, even though I don't know you personally, I wish you the very best of luck.

Thanks, much appreciated.

Good luck, bullett.


I'm always on msn/LIVE if you fancy a argument to get rid of the aggression :D


Oh, and I used SJW for a while, works like a charm but its some strange stuff.

Only going on what youve said, it sound's simliar to the apathy stage of depression, i really hope it doesnt get into the depression stage proper, because it wil become impossible to cope but even if you do, it only lasts a couple of days and you should try not to make any rash decisions when you cant think straight.

Thanks Creepy, might have to snap some necks soon - haven't been on LIVE for ages!

Flockhart wrote:
> Only going on what youve said, it sound's simliar to the apathy stage
> of depression, i really hope it doesnt get into the depression stage
> proper, because it wil become impossible to cope but even if you do,
> it only lasts a couple of days and you should try not to make any
> rash decisions when you cant think straight.

Thanks Flockhart. Hopefully if I do something about it now, I will avoid the decline and turn things around.

ßulle†† wrote:
> Thanks Creepy, might have to snap some necks soon - haven't been on
> LIVE for ages!

http://www.b3ta.com/questions/sh!tstor!es/

Replace the "!"'s. These might cheer you up a bit. Lord knows, the tears are streaming down my face at the moment. Repulsively amusing. :)

Pandaemonium wrote:
> http://www.b3ta.com/questions/sh!tstor!es/
>
> Replace the "!"'s. These might cheer you up a bit. Lord
> knows, the tears are streaming down my face at the moment.
> Repulsively amusing. :)


aww man thats rough >_<

Creepy wrote:
> aww man thats rough >_<

The picture? Aye, I could have done without that, but the stories are genius. :)

Oh dear God. Pandy, what evil hast thou inflictest upon thy looking balls?

That's some gross stuff right there! T'was indeed amusing though :)

ßulle†† wrote:
> Thanks Creepy, might have to snap some necks soon - haven't been on
> LIVE for ages!


Tom will have it before the end of this month, he really wants to give you a game. :) you can have some fun breaking his neck ;)