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...but I'm afraid to admit it.
My Parents and Girlfriend have all said I look 'down'. My Boss 'pulled me in' for a chat as concerns were raised by colleagues that I wasn't 100%, not all there, vacant. I can't be bothered with anything most of the time now. The only highlight in my life at the moment is getting my new car - a bit sad really. Retail therapy isn't cutting it like usual and I'm not eating as much as I normally do.
Could I be depressed/stressed? I despise my job, only staying for the money. The slightest things are annoying me and I'm just bottling my anger up inside. I feel the need to lash out almost all the time but again, keep it inside. I can never stay happy for too long, as I just start getting all negative again.
I'm not sleeping properly either. I finally went to the Doctors yesterday about it as I fell asleep at work on Tuesday. He gave me something to help me sleep at night but I doubt it'll work.
Worst of all, suicide has crossed my mind - BUT ONLY CROSSED IT, I've never given it any proper thought.
I don't know what's going on with me. I know there is something wrong, but I'm reluctant to admit I have a problem. The Doc asked me if I was Stressed or Depressed. I replied 'I don't think I am' - I feel that if I open up, people will think I'm some kind of Hypochondriac. I don't trust anyone. I feel they're all out to make me screw up.
This is probably the only place I can get my feelings across. I'll never see any of you lot, so I don't feel threatened by you. Feel free to ask questions/give comments, but I'm primarily writing this here for the satisfaction of knowing I have opened up in some way. The first step so to speak.
Finally, did any of that make any sense?!?
My Parents and Girlfriend have all said I look 'down'. My Boss 'pulled me in' for a chat as concerns were raised by colleagues that I wasn't 100%, not all there, vacant. I can't be bothered with anything most of the time now. The only highlight in my life at the moment is getting my new car - a bit sad really. Retail therapy isn't cutting it like usual and I'm not eating as much as I normally do.
Could I be depressed/stressed? I despise my job, only staying for the money. The slightest things are annoying me and I'm just bottling my anger up inside. I feel the need to lash out almost all the time but again, keep it inside. I can never stay happy for too long, as I just start getting all negative again.
I'm not sleeping properly either. I finally went to the Doctors yesterday about it as I fell asleep at work on Tuesday. He gave me something to help me sleep at night but I doubt it'll work.
Worst of all, suicide has crossed my mind - BUT ONLY CROSSED IT, I've never given it any proper thought.
I don't know what's going on with me. I know there is something wrong, but I'm reluctant to admit I have a problem. The Doc asked me if I was Stressed or Depressed. I replied 'I don't think I am' - I feel that if I open up, people will think I'm some kind of Hypochondriac. I don't trust anyone. I feel they're all out to make me screw up.
This is probably the only place I can get my feelings across. I'll never see any of you lot, so I don't feel threatened by you. Feel free to ask questions/give comments, but I'm primarily writing this here for the satisfaction of knowing I have opened up in some way. The first step so to speak.
Finally, did any of that make any sense?!?
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Hmmm, I'm really against using drugs, even 'natural' ones they can still lead to addiction and a lot of the time they do upset your natural 'balance' for example natural remedies that wake you up are known to give you that 'down' after. I strongly believe anyone can get out of depression without talking to anyone professionally (though it wouldn't hurt) or taking anything for it, I think they are shortcuts to the actual problem, the lazy option, they don't get to the root of the problem, it's like putting perfume on if you smell rather than taking a shower and washing your clothes.
Your problem is not that you suffer with depression, which is when these methods become necessary, but you are unhappy with your life, and the more unhappy you become the lazier you become. It is def. 100% your job, I used to have a job just like that, on the internet all day, own office, thought it was really cool in the beginning and wanted to slash my wrists (ok slight exaggeration) after a few months, but I became so lazy and lost all my confidence that I couldn't be bothered to get a new job, eventually my company moved and I took voluntary redundancy, so I had to get a new job, but even then, I started getting panic attacks and even had one during an interview, which really knocked me back. Do you feel like you don't really have anything to talk to people about cos you've done nothing all day? So you feel quite boring at times?
What do you want to do with your life? I have quite a sensitive question, so please forgive me for asking, but is there anything you would do if you weren't with your girlfriend (travelling, uni, etc.)
I know I would slip back into being unhappy or 'depressed' if I don't always keep on top of it, so I always make sure I eat as healthy as poss, as fats and sugars bring you down, make you lazy and tired, plus if you're eating vegetables and fruit then your digestive system will work better which means your body can use its energy in other areas to make sure you have more general awakeness and energy - a better state of mind, plus working out does absolute wonders, when I get home after going to the gym I feel amazing, I have so much energy and confidence and feel much more awake, and able to concentrate better. Plus I've started doing a course, which is keeping me challenged and mentally stimulated, it gives me that feeling of achievement, there's nothing worse than doing nothing and work and then getting home and sitting around doing 'nothing'. Your brain goes to sleep if you're bored in life and won't wake up until YOU do something about it, and no counsellor or tablets you take will be able to cure that for you.
Your problem is not that you suffer with depression, which is when these methods become necessary, but you are unhappy with your life, and the more unhappy you become the lazier you become. It is def. 100% your job, I used to have a job just like that, on the internet all day, own office, thought it was really cool in the beginning and wanted to slash my wrists (ok slight exaggeration) after a few months, but I became so lazy and lost all my confidence that I couldn't be bothered to get a new job, eventually my company moved and I took voluntary redundancy, so I had to get a new job, but even then, I started getting panic attacks and even had one during an interview, which really knocked me back. Do you feel like you don't really have anything to talk to people about cos you've done nothing all day? So you feel quite boring at times?
What do you want to do with your life? I have quite a sensitive question, so please forgive me for asking, but is there anything you would do if you weren't with your girlfriend (travelling, uni, etc.)
I know I would slip back into being unhappy or 'depressed' if I don't always keep on top of it, so I always make sure I eat as healthy as poss, as fats and sugars bring you down, make you lazy and tired, plus if you're eating vegetables and fruit then your digestive system will work better which means your body can use its energy in other areas to make sure you have more general awakeness and energy - a better state of mind, plus working out does absolute wonders, when I get home after going to the gym I feel amazing, I have so much energy and confidence and feel much more awake, and able to concentrate better. Plus I've started doing a course, which is keeping me challenged and mentally stimulated, it gives me that feeling of achievement, there's nothing worse than doing nothing and work and then getting home and sitting around doing 'nothing'. Your brain goes to sleep if you're bored in life and won't wake up until YOU do something about it, and no counsellor or tablets you take will be able to cure that for you.
It has been said that depression is a mental illness that afflicts only the intelligent.
Whomever said that obviously realised that the best way to combat depression was to boost the sufferers self-esteem...
Anyway, without wishing to seem flippant, you've done the right thing by even acknowledging the problem. My ex was exquisitely screwed up in the head, but insisted she wasn't. It's only the fact that I have a marvellous new lady in my life that prevents me being entirely twisted with hatred and bitterness.
Uhh...well, twisted with hatred and bitterness any more
Whomever said that obviously realised that the best way to combat depression was to boost the sufferers self-esteem...
Anyway, without wishing to seem flippant, you've done the right thing by even acknowledging the problem. My ex was exquisitely screwed up in the head, but insisted she wasn't. It's only the fact that I have a marvellous new lady in my life that prevents me being entirely twisted with hatred and bitterness.
Uhh...well, twisted with hatred and bitterness any more
Darwock wrote:
> I think a lot of us probably feel this way. So obviously videogames
> screw us up, or something.
Quite to opposite I find. Nothing like wholesome murder of polygons to lighten the day. After a hugely stressful day at work I used to Quake for an hour and came off feeling totally refreshed. :)
> I think a lot of us probably feel this way. So obviously videogames
> screw us up, or something.
Quite to opposite I find. Nothing like wholesome murder of polygons to lighten the day. After a hugely stressful day at work I used to Quake for an hour and came off feeling totally refreshed. :)
I think a lot of us probably feel this way. So obviously videogames screw us up, or something.
ßulle†† wrote:
> Yeah, I think I'll pop up to the local Health food Shop a bit later
> today.
>
> Thanks.
>
> It wouldn't hurt to see someone too though, would it? That way I can
> still talk to someone rather than keep it in. I don't know what it
> is, but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it with my family
> and friends.
If you really feel it'll help, go for it. I can't imagine any bad coming from it. Ineedsleeps suggestions above (below now?) is also very good. The Samaritans is one step above talking to people on a web board in essence after all. :)
> Yeah, I think I'll pop up to the local Health food Shop a bit later
> today.
>
> Thanks.
>
> It wouldn't hurt to see someone too though, would it? That way I can
> still talk to someone rather than keep it in. I don't know what it
> is, but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it with my family
> and friends.
If you really feel it'll help, go for it. I can't imagine any bad coming from it. Ineedsleeps suggestions above (below now?) is also very good. The Samaritans is one step above talking to people on a web board in essence after all. :)
It cannot hurt to talk to someone about this. If you really do not wish to go through your doctor first how about trying the Samaritans? It is confidential and they should encourage you to talk, even if you don't know where to start. It may be a starting point for you much as your initial post was.
Just had a quick browse through their website and nearly ended up volunteering :|
Just had a quick browse through their website and nearly ended up volunteering :|
Yeah, I think I'll pop up to the local Health food Shop a bit later today.
Thanks.
It wouldn't hurt to see someone too though, would it? That way I can still talk to someone rather than keep it in. I don't know what it is, but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it with my family and friends.
Thanks.
It wouldn't hurt to see someone too though, would it? That way I can still talk to someone rather than keep it in. I don't know what it is, but I just don't feel comfortable talking about it with my family and friends.
ßulle†† wrote:
> Pand, thanks for the St Johns Wort recommendation. I'll give them a
> try.
No probs. They'll take a couple of weeks to take an effect, but bear with them. I found them a godsend. I was going to see someone, but off a recommendation off a mate, I tried these. I never endedup going to see a counsellor.
Some info.
St Johns Wort [URL]http://www.all-natural.com/hyp-1.html[/URL] Natural treatment for depression.
Ginko Biloba [URL]http://healthlink.mcw.edu/article/901290580.html[/URL] Supposedly uncreases bloodflow to the brain (can't be a bad thing)
> Pand, thanks for the St Johns Wort recommendation. I'll give them a
> try.
No probs. They'll take a couple of weeks to take an effect, but bear with them. I found them a godsend. I was going to see someone, but off a recommendation off a mate, I tried these. I never endedup going to see a counsellor.
Some info.
St Johns Wort [URL]http://www.all-natural.com/hyp-1.html[/URL] Natural treatment for depression.
Ginko Biloba [URL]http://healthlink.mcw.edu/article/901290580.html[/URL] Supposedly uncreases bloodflow to the brain (can't be a bad thing)
Pand, thanks for the St Johns Wort recommendation. I'll give them a try.
Thanks Sleepy, I reckon I will see someone sooner rather than later. Might just take Pandy's advice on requesting a Counsellor from the Doc.
Thanks Sleepy, I reckon I will see someone sooner rather than later. Might just take Pandy's advice on requesting a Counsellor from the Doc.
Kat wrote:
> I find the times I am like that, it's because I am not happy with
> work, if I am happy in a job everything else kinda falls into place.
> Maybe your job isn't mentally stimulating enough for you?
I know for a fact it isn't stimulating enough for me. I'm bored to hell day in, day out. I have the time to surf the internet virtually every minute of my shift. Sounds good, but soon starts to lose it's novelty...
> I actually don't believe in just 'talking about it to someone' and I
> don't believe that depression is an illness in most people (some
> people I know do have 'depression' their whole life, lack of
> serotonin being released or something), with most people it's a chain
> of events that happen so slowly that you don't even notice so things
> get a little worse day by day but you don't notice cos it's too small
> a change, and then bam you realise you're unhappy.
I reckon that's how it must have happened to me. I've never seen any obvious signs of it until the past couple of weeks.
> Small things make a change but you do need to realise and accept that
> you have a problem, and talk about it with your girlfriend, don't
> block her out.
Believe me, I'm trying not to block her out, but 9 times out of 10 I find myself snapping at her or ignoring her. She's a fantastic girflriend though, and has a lot of patience with my tantrums :D
> Do you work out? Do you eat a balanced diet? What are your interests?
> How old?
Well, I don't work out (I know, I know, I'm making a start on that as soon as I can!), My diet isn't exactly balanced - I eat healthy when I can, but most meals aren't exactly healthy. Interests? Playing Video Games (although that has gone out of the window the past fortnight), driving, playing Snooker/Pool. I don't play football or rugby etc. It doesn't interest me. Finally, my age. I'm 21, since Feb.
> You CAN do this, anyone who's been there will tell you that, and when
> you come out the other side you will be happier than you've ever been
> and will never take a moment for granted (hopefully)
I hope so too. I know it's beatable, I know I can be happier, it's just getting there :D
Oh, and your second post - heh. Never saw it that way!
> I find the times I am like that, it's because I am not happy with
> work, if I am happy in a job everything else kinda falls into place.
> Maybe your job isn't mentally stimulating enough for you?
I know for a fact it isn't stimulating enough for me. I'm bored to hell day in, day out. I have the time to surf the internet virtually every minute of my shift. Sounds good, but soon starts to lose it's novelty...
> I actually don't believe in just 'talking about it to someone' and I
> don't believe that depression is an illness in most people (some
> people I know do have 'depression' their whole life, lack of
> serotonin being released or something), with most people it's a chain
> of events that happen so slowly that you don't even notice so things
> get a little worse day by day but you don't notice cos it's too small
> a change, and then bam you realise you're unhappy.
I reckon that's how it must have happened to me. I've never seen any obvious signs of it until the past couple of weeks.
> Small things make a change but you do need to realise and accept that
> you have a problem, and talk about it with your girlfriend, don't
> block her out.
Believe me, I'm trying not to block her out, but 9 times out of 10 I find myself snapping at her or ignoring her. She's a fantastic girflriend though, and has a lot of patience with my tantrums :D
> Do you work out? Do you eat a balanced diet? What are your interests?
> How old?
Well, I don't work out (I know, I know, I'm making a start on that as soon as I can!), My diet isn't exactly balanced - I eat healthy when I can, but most meals aren't exactly healthy. Interests? Playing Video Games (although that has gone out of the window the past fortnight), driving, playing Snooker/Pool. I don't play football or rugby etc. It doesn't interest me. Finally, my age. I'm 21, since Feb.
> You CAN do this, anyone who's been there will tell you that, and when
> you come out the other side you will be happier than you've ever been
> and will never take a moment for granted (hopefully)
I hope so too. I know it's beatable, I know I can be happier, it's just getting there :D
Oh, and your second post - heh. Never saw it that way!
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