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"A life of Parr . . ."

Well a life of being me is really harsh. Sometimes i kick around the floor head in my hands thinking i wish it all would end. Then there are the happy times.

Basically i am another troubled youngster.

I live in a house with my two sisters my older brother and my mum and dad. I have no bedroom, so i sleep in my living room. People walk through every five minutes, so i have no privacy, my stuff is all over the place and i am always nagged at to tidy it up.

My mother will always scream and shout about anything. It is a pity really because she is a really nice woman but i have lost count of the amount of times she has gone off on one just because there is "water splashes on the bathroom mirror".

My dad is ok. He tries to interact with me and to show his effection but he has bad timing and usualy comes to see me when i am really upset. Sometimes this can hlep but most of the time it just makes me feel worse.

I haven't spoke to my brother in over a year and it looks like we will never talk again. What a waste, i know and a ral pity as well. I can remember the great times when we would play multi player Perfect Dark and we would laugh and joke and really have a great time. But that is all gone and i really miss it.

My sisters are highly annoying and usualy either break my things or get me so mad i start to smash things up.

Some of my friends decide it is fun to always use me as their comic relief and it is really depressing how i am always pushed around and looked down upon and generally ridiculed.

School is hard at the moment. I have about 4 courseworks which are now late and i am constantly being told i am under achieving. GCSE's are starting in just a matter of weeks and i still have not started to revise.

But then again lets look on the bright side.

I have some really great friends on these forums and out there in the town i live. I am lucky enoguh to be fed and to actually have somewhere to live. There are people that care for me even thoguh i don't feel they do.

But I still can't help letting it drag me down. . .

Yeah as Chips said, study your backside off so you can decide your future.

Maybe stay in halls of residence, few hard years and then you can have as many rooms as you want.

As I said I admire your outlook

If you don't mind me asking... how did all this arise?

How old is your brother? Why'd he throw you out? Why didn't your parents sort it out?

And please tell me your sisters dont have a room each

I feel for you mate :|

You shouldn't worry about how your family have shaped you Parr. You can rise above it, just think about Universtiy. Revise your socks off and get there, make a fresh start. You won't be under pressure from your family there, and you can get some quality friends that will really help you. They can help you if you need help.

I look at it this way -

In life you have many options, you can sit back and watch, take and stand or just fall to the many troubles. I am the type to just sit back and watch. I stand up for myself when i have to but siting back and just looking at things seems a better path to take. When it comes to family heated actions are such that are not wanted. One heated aguement can lead to years of regret so foolishness with in my situation is not acceptable.

I do hope for things to get better and I am sure they will.

I gave my dad little options. I said "If i do not have a bedroom by the time this summer is out i will pack up my bags and leave. To where i do not know but i shall not stay living down here untill i am 18 and goto University."

Since then he and my mum have started to look for new houses. Although they are not looking hard at all and it seems like they are hoping things will blow over.

At the end of it all however, the damage is already done and nothing they can do will change they way i have been shaped. A better person i hope i will emerge but i will need some help. As it seems good help is hard to find, but as you people have prooved to me tonight. Tere is that help and there are still options. I thank you for that.

I have to admire you attitude and well whatever it is

I do fell however that the actions of your brother and parents are a disgrace.

That is totally unfair for you

THing is i do not feel that i want it to go that far. What would child line do or say? I also feel i am too old because I am 16 now i feel that i will pass unoticed as just a depressed teen.

All i wish for a lucky win on the lottery or a lovely donation from somewhere so my parents can buy an extension for my house.

But we all have dreams don't we

tollerance should only go so far. and you need to get some time and advice yourself. childline has a website.

cookie monster wrote:
> Your mum and dad didnt do anything about it?

Well no they didn't/ They bought me a sofa bed downstairs but that was that. I had to buy my own pc because the old one was in my brothers room. In a way it has made me a bbetter person. I now have more tolerence towards people and i have the ability to step back to to analyse someone else's life and to give the some advice. Alot of my friends talk to me for advice. Ironic really that I am the one churning out the advice and actually needing advice as well.

That is really nasty.

Your mum and dad didnt do anything about it?

advice. try and solve some of the problems by taking this time to think about your situation and how to change it positively. get councelling. good to hear you have friends in the village.