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"Sometimes I Feel Like An Insane Fool"

I'm worried about my future.

I'm scared about what is going to happen to me in my later years.

Will I be rich?

Will I be famous?

Will I have a big house and sexy lady's surrounding me offering me drinks?

Or will I own a cardboard box where I am forced to try and make fire by rubbing my fingers together?

Will I be alone?

Will I have kids?

But most importantly, will sing to myself in the street?

Yes I do it, I sing to myself in the Street when I am alone and I admit it. I don't know why this is, I don't know what makes me do it, but whenever I am not walking side by side with someone I sing to myself. I feel like one of those crazy insane fools you see walking down the road chatting to themselves about nothing. The people me and my mates use to look at and laugh at because they were totally mental.

I look back on how they use to be and realise that it only happens because they are lonely. But then I think of myself singing quietly whenever I can and louder whenever I can.

Infact, it's got alot worse. I walk home after Sixth Form alot by myself and I try to sing every song which comes into my head or as many as I can before I reach home. I use to go much more silent when someone would near but now I think they actually hear me as I keep on singing.

I'm afraid that this could develop.

As could another thing I have had a habit of doing lately, shaking. Much like Micheal Jackson was doing when he had a baby on his knee, I shake my leg alot. It use to be sometimes but now it has turned into something which my Mum calls me a 'Spaz' for. Then she shakes herself and tells me one day I'll be walking down the street with my legs wobbling like a spasticated Duck (well that last bit I added on). Try it yourself, it looks funny. They tell me to stop everytime I do it, but I can't help it.

When I sit here I don't shake my leg, but when I'm sitting at the table for Dinner I ALWAYS do it. I actually think I’m having an influence on my little Sister as she is doing it alot more now too.

It's strange, but that’s how habits work. Maybe I should start to try and stop myself from doing it. Just tell myself to stop.

Another habit I have is being lazy in one mind but being ambitious in the other. It's weird but I'm sure many of us get that one. Something we have to overcome much like other things we don't want to be doing when we're older.

I asked my friend if he does it when he's alone and I was surprised when he said "Yes".

Turned out to be a certain nursery rhyme song or something.

Wow we have another leg shaker? I noticed that if I do it in a room, say a Doctors surgery, a few more people do it and it becomes like a spreadable disease.

I'm about as a singer as a dead retarded skunk that's been ran over by a steam roller, had it's leg broken off and shoved down it's throat, then be urinated on by a ratarded German hooker.

But yes, I enjoy singing :-D

I shake my leg all the time. I get it from my Mum, who does it way more severely than me, to the point where it seriously distracts you from anything you're doing. It must be some kind of genetic leg-shaking desire.

I like to sing, but I end up singing really poor song "Ant and Dec Ready To Rumble" I had that song in my head for around a week straight, I know longer fear death. It cant be that bad.

I sing to myself when I'm walking along a quiet street on my own...I used to do it when I played cricket, and I was fielding on the boundary. :D I dunno if it makes us weird, just something that takes me off the boredom of the journey I suppose.

I like to sing, even if I'm not that good. {:)

I'm worried about my future.

I'm scared about what is going to happen to me in my later years.

Will I be rich?

Will I be famous?

Will I have a big house and sexy lady's surrounding me offering me drinks?

Or will I own a cardboard box where I am forced to try and make fire by rubbing my fingers together?

Will I be alone?

Will I have kids?

But most importantly, will sing to myself in the street?

Yes I do it, I sing to myself in the Street when I am alone and I admit it. I don't know why this is, I don't know what makes me do it, but whenever I am not walking side by side with someone I sing to myself. I feel like one of those crazy insane fools you see walking down the road chatting to themselves about nothing. The people me and my mates use to look at and laugh at because they were totally mental.

I look back on how they use to be and realise that it only happens because they are lonely. But then I think of myself singing quietly whenever I can and louder whenever I can.

Infact, it's got alot worse. I walk home after Sixth Form alot by myself and I try to sing every song which comes into my head or as many as I can before I reach home. I use to go much more silent when someone would near but now I think they actually hear me as I keep on singing.

I'm afraid that this could develop.

As could another thing I have had a habit of doing lately, shaking. Much like Micheal Jackson was doing when he had a baby on his knee, I shake my leg alot. It use to be sometimes but now it has turned into something which my Mum calls me a 'Spaz' for. Then she shakes herself and tells me one day I'll be walking down the street with my legs wobbling like a spasticated Duck (well that last bit I added on). Try it yourself, it looks funny. They tell me to stop everytime I do it, but I can't help it.

When I sit here I don't shake my leg, but when I'm sitting at the table for Dinner I ALWAYS do it. I actually think I’m having an influence on my little Sister as she is doing it alot more now too.

It's strange, but that’s how habits work. Maybe I should start to try and stop myself from doing it. Just tell myself to stop.

Another habit I have is being lazy in one mind but being ambitious in the other. It's weird but I'm sure many of us get that one. Something we have to overcome much like other things we don't want to be doing when we're older.