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I'm sick and tired of repressing everything that bothers me, everything that scares me and everything that chides me. I need someone to confide in, to listen to me and to tell me it'll all be alright in the end. I need someone to hug me, to silence the screams inside me. But I can't find anyone.
I need to let this out. I need to get out of me what's eating away at me. I need to write. I need to. But I can't. Everytime I try everything just regresses further into me. I can't put into words what I'm feeling. I can't express myself. And that makes me frustrated. That makes me angry. And it’s got to the point where I’m so frustrated that I just want to cry. I want to let it all out through my eyes (Never mind, it’s only me that cries). F### pride, nobility and all the other pseudo-emotions that I force on myself, I need to let me get out. In any form. Spoken, sung, written, drawn. I don’t care what medium. But I need to get out and I can’t. And that is the most frustrating, depressing, saddening and heart-wrenching thing that I have ever experienced. I’m alienated by myself. I’m wrestling with myself alone because I can’t describe what I’m feeling. And it’s continuing to chafe and chew away at me. It’s destroying me from the inside. I need someone to talk to. But I can’t find anyone to listen. I need someone to hug me. But I can’t find anyone who’ll reach out their arms to me. I'm crying out. But no one understands me... because I can't explain myself. It's just a vicious cycle.
And I’m scared. So f###ing scared.
And I’m crying.
I'm sick and tired of repressing everything that bothers me, everything that scares me and everything that chides me. I need someone to confide in, to listen to me and to tell me it'll all be alright in the end. I need someone to hug me, to silence the screams inside me. But I can't find anyone.
I need to let this out. I need to get out of me what's eating away at me. I need to write. I need to. But I can't. Everytime I try everything just regresses further into me. I can't put into words what I'm feeling. I can't express myself. And that makes me frustrated. That makes me angry. And it’s got to the point where I’m so frustrated that I just want to cry. I want to let it all out through my eyes (Never mind, it’s only me that cries). F### pride, nobility and all the other pseudo-emotions that I force on myself, I need to let me get out. In any form. Spoken, sung, written, drawn. I don’t care what medium. But I need to get out and I can’t. And that is the most frustrating, depressing, saddening and heart-wrenching thing that I have ever experienced. I’m alienated by myself. I’m wrestling with myself alone because I can’t describe what I’m feeling. And it’s continuing to chafe and chew away at me. It’s destroying me from the inside. I need someone to talk to. But I can’t find anyone to listen. I need someone to hug me. But I can’t find anyone who’ll reach out their arms to me. I'm crying out. But no one understands me... because I can't explain myself. It's just a vicious cycle.
And I’m scared. So f###ing scared.
And I’m crying.