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"For you all"

I'm just a noise
The thoughts have returned
For the times that I believed
That I had already learned
And now again
I find my true mould
Because perhaps once more
I should be told
Because I can't sleep
At all anymore
The thinking won't stop
No path to a door
It leads me astray
Around in a ring
For the visions return
To me they do sing
A monotonous song
Which is too hard to cope with
Again
And I'll just be ignored
Just like each time
Because this isn't fiction
It's my truth in rhyme
There's nothing you can say
To make it go away
Because my truth lies in pain
Which I seem to deserve
I'm just gone insane
The long road has started
But I don't think this time
I want to reach the line
So don't be suprised
If on some calm day
With not a small broken sound
You'll notice that
I'm not around
Anymore
Some people looked up to me
Some people didn't
And the ones that didn't were right all along
Because I just used to sing my old song
And be supportive of others in their dying needing
Because I couldn't cope with my constant bleeding
It's not that I'm not strong enough to go on
I've just reached the end of my song
I've tried all I could
And I just hope I would
Bring more to you in my absense
Than I ever did here
Good luck everyone
I would never have forgotten you
You made me see
What it's like to live
But there's nothing left for me
I've lived all I can
I've experienced what I could
In my short time
Because I see now it's obvious
It was fate all along
The only thing I was ever meant to do here
Was to help others see past their fears
Because if you don't you'll end up like me
With no hope for anything and no land to see
Because I've achieved what I came to do
The task of the impossible
Discover what the real truth was
The meaning of life
But guys
Please don't find it
Because as soon as you do
They'll be nothing left for you
For nothing really matters
As a dying man once said to me
In his eyes, they spoke, you see
So please do all that you can
To keep searching for a life I couldn't find
By telling myself what life was
Hurting people just to be kind
Because if there's one last thing I must leave you with
Then please take note
Life doesn't come from looking up to people
It doesn't come from needing someone to hug you
It doesn't come from being told what to do
It comes from having to fight through your pains
It comes from the bullies that made your life hell
It comes from the mother that wouldn't sit still
It comes from the visions you see at night
The nightmares that give you such a big fright
Because people don't learn how to live from comforts
They learn to live from just being hurt
So lock yourself away
If just for a day
With nothing to play with
And no-one to talk to
And just think to yourself
Of why you're so angry
When someone makes a mistake
And ask yourself
Why you're so upset
When you make a mistake yourself
Because people aren't monsters
They're humans in need
They all need your help
That I couldn't provide
Because I don't think I could ever forgive myself
For that things that I did
But I guess it's nice to know
Of all the things that have gone
For what have I done?
So many things...
I've experienced life
Seen so much of it
More than I wanted
More than I thought I would
And I made some nice friends
And met some nice people
I had a nice life
And most importantly
I fell in love
But it was too hard to cope with
Because I knew in the end
I'd just end up hurting her
Just like everyone else
I've ever met
In my wonderful life
So no time to be married now
But you were always my wife
But I can't be a husband
For there's so much more for you
The one I didn't fight...
For please won't you see
I was trying to make you understand
You were better than me
There's not much to say now
Apart from goodbye
I love each and every one of you
And that's really no lie
You're just all so human
And that's why you're beautiful
Because that's just something
I could never be
So please just be happy
And make your decisions
For all you do
Will always be right
And if you're ever feeling down
And you can't see the light
Just go walk in the sand
Kick your feet for a while
And please find your comforts
Because I always loved you
And I'd hate to see you
End up like me
But it was never me
That pushed you on
I just showed you all
Who you could be
It was never me
You're just all so perfect
I love you so much
But Grix Thraves
Never existed
He was all in your mind
Just a gentle kind
He was just your confidence
That wanted to tell you who you were
Who you could be
If you really tried
So I guess this is the last of me
It's been an honour knowing you all
And I'm happy to say
Knowing you
Means I can die
Peacefully
And no amount of life I could possibly live
Would give me to time to repay you for that
So I hope you forgive me
For not bothering to try
Thank you all so much
For allowing me to cry
This one last time
Stay happy guys
You're all so important to me
And I'll be watching from wherever I end up
So don't let me down
Please
Because deep down
You all know the truth

Thanks Lord H, I'll keep that in mind.

And guys can you all read There seems to be some confusion please before you all go shouting at each other...

SHEEPY wrote:
> How do you know Stryke?

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Beacause I'm involved with the same woman, OK?

1) Don't leave a suicide note on here unless you mean to do it. In my opinion Grix, you are an attention seeker anyway, you wouldn't have the balls to do it....

2) Get some psychiatric help for god's sake!

It's the "Universal Blues" song.

9-10 when a bloke is down, it's because of a woman. Because the whole idea of "This person is the best thing in the world" is a joke.
You get dumped, you feel bad.
You sit and feel low.
You get better.
Life sucks, wear a helmet.

To start throwing around the idea you're going to kill yourself over a f###ing woman is weak.
It may feel noble and you may like the idea that she'll throw herself into the sea, consumned with loss and grief.
She'll wear black (carefully matched with the shoes) and feel down.
Then, eventually, she'll move on.

"I must kill myself because I do not have this woman anymore"?
Please.

How do you know Stryke?

This is over a f###ing woman?
A woman???

Oh for godsakes get a grip.
There are better and more valid reasons for offing yourself than a f###ing woman.
No matter how much you think you "love" that person, you'll get over her.
However much you hurt now, it'll pass.
People write bad poems about it when they have an unrequited love or have been dumped.
You don't throw yourself on a dagger unless you live in a Shakespeare novel.

Of all the reasons to be upset/down/miserable, a bloody woman is the least reason to feel it.
They're not worth it, and I don't care how much you think "But this one is special. This is one is my reason for living and without her I have nothing" - you'll find another.
Trust me on this.

I got dumped 2 weeks ago and it felt like I got kicked in the chest.
I was in tears, upset, angry...all of that stuff.
But I'm past that stage now, and I felt that this woman was the only thing in the world for me and blah blah blah.

Sorry to sound cynical here, but a goddamn woman is not worth the hassle and effort of slashing your wrists.
Be a man and laugh at it.
Go read Bukowski and have a drink, smoke a cig and play a video game.

There are better reasons for this course of action than a f###ing woman.

I hope that's the lowest I ever go.

And it's NOBODY'S fault but my own.

Look, Darren. Don't. If you don't want to talk to me about this on MSN, I'll post it on here. Please. If this is any part to do with me being overprotective of her, I'm sorry. She's not mine to tell who to talk to. Just don't let my stupidity do this to you.

No.

I can't find the right words for this right now, I wish there was something I could say to make things different, better somehow.

Well...

I'm not sure what to say or think

I'll talk to you on MSN if you want?