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Getting up in the mornings, when you don't have anything to get up for.
It's kind of hard isn't it?
Recently (last saturday) I finished my part-time stop-gap job, while looking for something permanant.
While I was working, I'd usually have to get up at sensible times (or at 4.30 am, for the odd 6 am start), but the days off I'd usually be in the pattern of getting up, of feel I'd earned the lie in.
My 4th day unemployed and already bad habits have set in. When you have nothing to wake up for, and never have anything to wake up for, it feels so pointless to get up, like it's not worth the hassle.
You can lie in bed where it's warm and comfortable, drift back into a peaceful sleep. And I can sleep for hours given the chance.
On one level, I'd like to get up, be productive, and live.
But when faced with that decision, it hits home that I've nothing to get up for.
I remember being a student. In my first year I was a total lamer, sleeping in far too much. In my second year I was a little better, but it wasn't until the workload was heavy and the pressure was on, in my third year, that I actually cut my sleep time down to sensible hours.
That's my one regret about uni life too - spending too much time sleeping and lazing about, and not enough time getting up, doing things, making the most of life.
But here I am, falling into the same cycle again.
I'm sure it'll change when I get a job. I'm better at sleeping early, and have more discipline for when I really do have to do things.
But I want to get up for the non-work days too, I want to change my mindset.
I want to overcome my passivity and live dynamically.
Am I just a lazy git?
Is there really anything worth getting up for, or would I spend those extra sleeping ours watching Trisha?
And just how do you overcome the short term comfort to actually live well?
Is it really just terrible self-discipline on my part? My mind doesn't seem to weigh up all the benefits when I'm bleary-eyed and fumbling for the alarm.
Then I woke up at 3.
:^(
Probably make up for it tomorrow :)
I had a week off in between changing jobs a few weeks back and I really enjoyed those 7 days of getting up when I wanted without the hassle of having to go somewhere and do something.
As soon as I started the new job next week, there goes the alarm at 6:00 and its the neverending struggles all over again!
I REALLY miss those wonderful extra hours in bed now, six or seven weeks in to my 7:30 starts...!
With the last part in mind, I do find it easier to get up earlier if you have to start early in the morning. Until recently, I've been getting up at 6:30. Yet, I'm clocking in at 7:40 on average - and this place is a five minute drive up the road! So, I'll see how things fare this week with a 6:15.
Perhaps because I need to be getting on with things, I feel like it's more a waste than a luxury.
Last night I didn't sleep at all.
I was beginning to think I wasn't up to all-nighters any more, getting too old. It's kind of reassuring to have fared reasonably well with it. Although I'd still rather not be a lamer.
Just tell me there's nobody called Kelly there :^D
Although now that I mention it, I think I blindly stumbled across the answer to those such dilemmas today.
"Go sleep with a dozen other women then look at her again and see if she still seems so special."
I wish someone had told me that a few years ago :^)
Same company, different job (I'm a joiner this time, stuff the customers!). Yeah, old what's-her-name's still there... But I can live with it this time. I learnt a lot in the two months I spent away from the place (even though that job didn't work out in the end). Money's MUCH better here anyhow! ;D
There's a new worm digging in to my brain these days and her name's Katie Melua - you may or may not have heard of her... ;D
But I've never even seen or heard the girl speak in person - just a distant dream, I guess...
How're things with you these days?
I see you're unemployed - still trying to find out what you want to do?
I've been doing carpentry for three years now and I'm still not convinced it's what I want to do - maybe that's just life? Or work.
Work is work. As I'm increasingly growing to accept.
But if you're looking for inspiration, I'd recommend:
Finding Your Own North Star - Martha Beck
What Colour is Your Parachute - Richard Nelson Bolles
And sleeping with a dozen women of course :^D
I was looking into plumbing too, but it seems I've missed the boat now.
Just so long as I find something I can be happy enough doing. I think the tax monkey position is that.
No ideas what you'd do if it weren't carpentry then?
It doesn't have to be Katie posts, just so long as they're about some other girl :^)