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"Stronger"

I know I put this in the Life Forum, but not many people go there (and if they do it's usually to talk about football), so I've pasted it in here. Hope that's okay with everyone.

I've noticed something about myself lately. I'm stronger. Not in a physical way (although my muscular form is indeed impressive), I mean inside me. An emotional way.

When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:

*We walk into school for our second year with her*

Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.

And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.

I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.

I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.

Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.

Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.

However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.

Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:

"Yagosarner?"

"What?" I replied, confused.

"Yagosarner?"

"Sorry?"

Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:

"No, and you haven't got any brains either."

Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D

To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!

I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.

I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.

Thanks for reading, Ant.

PS-For those of you know me well, I hope that you're interested in reading my full MGS2 review which will be up in FOG Prime at some point during the next week. Strange how a mere video game can mean so much to me. I know most of you won't care, but a few will know that I've been bantering on about MGS2 since I finished MGS, and so I hope they will want to read my final thoughts on something I'm so passionate about.

Heh, seems I'm just like you then Ant.

I'd say well done to you for not caring about these idiotic nobodys. These people are obviously ignorant little pigs whose heads are shoved too far up their own a***s to bother about anyone else apart from themselves.

Teachers can be like that aswell, I have two teachers that hate my guts because of what other members of my family have done to them, so I've developed the art of answering back (yes I know it doesn't solve anything but it makes me feel better).

Anyway, being what you are isn't a reason to be laughed at and I say good on you for not letting it get you down. Keep on being strong and tell people to stuff it if they don't like you being what you are.

A5hley wrote:
> not that i wish to be seen inciting violence but you should have punched her in
> the voicebox and called it speech therapy.

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1) Its a male teacher that sounds exactly like Dr.Frink from The Simpsons.

2) Good idea .......... lol

not that i wish to be seen inciting violence but you should have punched her in the voicebox and called it speech therapy.

the man with no name wrote:
> Daily mail headline:

"Hercules assaults teacher"

he is obviously
> singlehandedly responsible for the teacher shortage

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hahahaa

indeed,
thing is though,
my maths teacher keeps coming back and gives me the odd punch in the arm when he thinks im messing about so i just kick his ***

lol

Daily mail headline:

"Hercules assaults teacher"

he is obviously singlehandedly responsible for the teacher shortage

If you think you're going to get ahead simply because you're intelligent, I'd seriously reconsider your view on life, Shaun.

I never realised how much you and I have in common, Ant. I'm nervous around girls at times, I don't go drinking my head off down some park, I don't smoke, I don't talk about drugs all day, I'm a 'goody goody' if you really want to be honest about it. People pick on me because they think I won't fight back, but they get their comeuppance when I snap back with a witty remark, which normally confuses them, thus making them leave me alone. I say screw them Ant, just screw the a'sholes. They'll be the ones floating through life like pieces of crap and we'll be the successful ones. They'll be lying in the streets or dead on the toilet after a binge, and we'll get a well-paid job. Our intelligence may be frowned upon now, but in many years to come, it will be to our advantage.

Sorry that you've had to deal with all that crap, I mean, you seem nice enough :0)

Shaun.

Hey Ant,
I was once kinda one of those kids who wouldnt be respected in the school and was always unhappy at a slight insult or something like that.
If someone said something about me behind my back id always know what they said but i just wouldnt do anything about it.
Id be called frequently every 5 mins by a different person and would go home thinking to myself why i am like what i was like.
As time passed and i got used to people calling me day in and day out and ever so slightly got used to it and started to be unaffected by it all.
I thought to myself,
"these guys arent different to me"

When i went into secondary school it all started again but with new people giving me aggrovasion each day.

Im not exactly the biggest and strongest person in the school and actually quite average.
Not fat, not thin, not muscular, not bony, just perfect if you ask me.
Anyway,
All the others are like 6ft monsters and used to think i wouldnt retaliate.

Well,
when i couldnt take it anymore i just gave out a real big lecture to all those who would frequently tease me about lots of stuff and would call them names too.

Before i knew it they would all say
"hey we didnt meen it really, we were only messin"

And from then on if anyone would say anything about me i would either laugh in thier face and call them back or just ignore them competely.
Its actually quite funny to me nowadays.

Also,
If there's any new people who start to say anything about me i can count on those who used to call me to defend me because i taught them a lesson and the have become my friends.

Now i have alot more respect in the school.
People know who i am.
Mostly everyone in the year are my friends and the others i just dont talk to because i cant be bothered.

Even the teachers,
some of them even you to say things about me but now i stand up to them and tell them who is incharge of me.

If a teacher says im on a detention for doing something that is just pathetic id tell them that im not doing it and i get off it.
Some teachers even hit the pupils with stuff and i tell them that if they do it again that it hit them with it myself.
My maths teacher once punched a lad in the arm so i said
"hey, why dont you do that to me?"
and so he walked over to me and hit me in the arm,

what did he get in return?
i gave him a bruise with an area of about 100cm squared.

Dont believe me about all this?
Why dont you come down to my school sometime and i'll show you all.
You just have to be confident and stand up to people and things like this.

If you continue to be shy and dont give them some agro in return then they will continue to mock you and you will lead a very miserable life.

Dont be afraid of idiots like this.
Show them whats for!

Peace

hey leicester lads :D

Kid Rock wrote:

must just be down with all my mates here

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Southern fairies ;)