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"One day..."

ONe day I came to a site. This site was really cool. This site had people to talk to. This site gave away games. THis site called me a newbie. This site was Special Reserve. JUst over a year ago I dropped my anchor here at Special Reserve and I began posting as the Games Guru. I enjoyed posting and stuff and made some really great friends and vastly improved my typing and writing ability. I chatted about games, argued about consoles and expressed my views on the latest gaming breakthrough or latest turkey to be unveiled. Where did that go?

Today I find myself bored. I have been playing Tactical Ops for a lot of the day, a bit of Medal of Honour and I have been working on my first TActical Ops map. I have also posted on many forums... I used to post here all the time. What happened... I used to be addicted to this place. Today I find myself completely disappointed at the chat part of the fog, it should just be renamed to chat and forget the fog. Its a place of predictability and spam to be quite honest. Even chat used to be about games sometimes, now I am not saying this place should be limited to games but it would be nice to see some proper chat such as the topic goatboy made that is actually about a game and peoples views and so on.

Newbies have come and go, some more annoying than others, some have stayed on to become decent posters. Can't think of any right now but I will get back to you. I find myself wandering the net in search of something, just something that will restore my faith in having a cable modem. That little glint in the corner that I know is there but I just can't find. Mp3s are cool... nothing spectacular. Online games are brilliant, beginning to bore me. Life isn't good, gave up on that a long time ago. WHat is there. Whats left. I know I am only 15 and I haven't experienced anything, barely seen what the worlds got to offer but I am giviing up hope on anything actually delivering the goods. A job? Great at first but it will soon become a ritual. A girlfriend? Love can be a great thing, but heartbreak is definately not, its something that can tear your life around and spit you out with no idea of what to do, no idea of where to go and what to do next. Life can be very tough.

I don't really know where I am going to be completely honest with you. This post is really about my feelings, my feelings about life, my feelings about this place. My love for life, my love for this place, right now they are at an all time low. SOmething will come along, something will lift me up, put me back on my feet and I will be out of the starting blocks running down that track towards the next stage in my life. I know its there, I just need to take a leap, take a chance and make the most of what I have. Its the great thing about being a human. You can sometimes feel bad, sometimes feel sad, but you know theres a light at the end of the tunnel and when you get there its all going to be fine, everything will be great.

FInally I am just going to say a big thankyou to anyone that knows me here, your great people and great writers. You make this site what it is and keep the gloom from decending upon it. You can accept the new people in to the forums and give them a nice welcome, you ridicule people who don't quite fit in. THe ones who have something different... is that a good thing? I don't really know but this place is still going strong but I feel it is going into a new stage and I am not ready, and I never wanted it to be like this and thats probably why I haven't been here much. I don't like change and I struggled to accept new people coming along and taking some of the spotlight. Funnier people, smarter people, more interesting people. Its just a new generation of poster, and its a new generation that this site needs.

MJswerve wrote:
> Er yeah, I haven't ever made a post there let alone been there
> mate...


Perhaps it was someone else under that name then. It was about 282 days ago.

good good.

Nope not planning on it.

I got enough problems from changing just the once.

Plus my Ego now roams about the place taking libertes of my good nature, claiming all praise so no more Starlight's are needed as of yet.

Heh, ;0)

heh gonna change your name again some time?

Yep I remember good old RIA, even to today people don't know I'm the same person.

Wildlight lasted about a week, it then spawned to Starlight. There is a reason that has nothing to do with the song that was sortly released about a month after but I won't disclose it here. (As it's nothing to do with any of you) :-P.

It's really all the Dreamcasts fault.

i remember rawisandy and when you changed to wildlight for the first time in the WWF forum longest thread

Oh yeah, I did read the topic, I just didn't have much to say, shame you don't want to post as much here no more because of all the spamming etc but even I hate that but still manage to fit the odd post in here and there.

I remember when you were a regular vister in the WWF Forum and contributed a lot to the stories, shame that that's all gone now.

Have fun with your cable MJ ;0)

ACk....

I remember someone called Lock n Load but he dosn't seem to be about no more ;0)

As for the rest, yup, it was good in the old days.

I remember someone else liek that name... nm