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*Sigh* I don't really feel like typing tonight, to be honest I can't be bothered to do anything. So why am I writing this? I don't know myself...perhaps I just want to let my feelings about life at the moment spill out. I've already done it on the WWF Forum, but here is more appropriate.
School's been getting me down lately. I wake up every morning and sigh, some could say dreading the day ahead of me. Why? Well, I think the problem is I already know what I want to do in life. I decided a few weeks ago that I want to use my writing skills to their full potential-my final target to become a successful author. I'm not too sure how I'm going to get there, but with some help from friends (people I know in person and people from these chat forums,) and from God, I reckon I can make it.
I don't like school because I spend nearly half my day, basically the main part of the day, in a dreary building, mostly learning about what the electromagnetic spectrum is, or some other crap like that. As my friend Grandprix said a few nights ago, it probably will be worth it when it's over, but at the moment I'd really rather be at home, adding to my next story (which is coming along well, but I don't have enough damn time to add to it,) than being in school learning how to work out sixteen to the power of two thirds.
Thursday was the worst. We were in week B, and that meant that my lessons that day were, in this order: German, French, Chemistry, PE and Physics. I don't like German because the whole of my class is full of 'hardnuts,' who muck about all the time, and in the end it's pure havoc, which unfortunately, I can't get involved in because I'm not a member of the 'cool' gang. I'm good at French, but the lessons often bore me, and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. So, the morning is usually hell for me.
Chemistry is boring, but PE was fun (very good, had fun playing tennis,) and Biology...well, the teacher is bad enough, and it's got to be one of the most dull lessons ever. Overall, school just makes me tired. I'm learning stuff (half the time) I don't particularly want, or need, to learn, and it depresses me. I do have fun occasionally, I have lots of friends including two 'newish' ones, who are a real laugh. But this means the teachers split us up all the time, so that's the end of that...This is possibly my first rant about something, although I expect I'll disagree with what I've written in a few years time.
Tonight I just feel...tired. Uninspired. My post count is visibly falling as I have less time to come on the forums, and also less 'need' to come on them. I would like to, but at the moment I'm just not interested in anything being written. Perhaps this is why I'm droning on in here...I had an e-mail from my ex-girlfriend the other night. A few of you on here, if you happened to read the topic on FOG Prime I wrote a while back, will know the story of how I tried to get her back. Desperate? No, it was just I really liked being around her. Do I regret doing it (as in asking her out again)?? Sort of. I know it's good to get it out in the open, but sometimes I wish I still had hope...if I wasn't so damn unconfident (blame that on infant school,) perhaps I'd be a little happier.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. This is stupid, to be honest. Letting out all my feelings on you guys. Why do I do it? Perhaps it's the only way I can. In fact, it is the only way. No, actually. I can talk to God about these things...and the Christian youth group I go to. But it's still hard...I feel much more confident on here...well, I feel total confidence with God, but any other Christian will know how it's easier to spill your emotions out on another person, as they will (hopefully) give you a direct answer.
I'm typing here with no direction whatsoever...just typing whatever comes to my mind. I guess it's a way of getting away from the stress of everyday life...escapism, for want of a better term. Gah...tomorrow's sunday...where did today go? Who the hell made the weekend 2 days, and the working week 5 days?
I should probably stop typing now, as I expect I'm either making you all depressed, or I'm just boring you. I'm probably going over the top...I probably don't feel as bad as I think I do. I felt fine about half an hour ago, and then suddenly all of this came out.
Well, if you have read all the way down to here, then I thank you kindly. I have met some of my true friends on here, and these forums have become so much more important to me than just winning prizes and discussing what console is the best. So once again, thank you.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
School's been getting me down lately. I wake up every morning and sigh, some could say dreading the day ahead of me. Why? Well, I think the problem is I already know what I want to do in life. I decided a few weeks ago that I want to use my writing skills to their full potential-my final target to become a successful author. I'm not too sure how I'm going to get there, but with some help from friends (people I know in person and people from these chat forums,) and from God, I reckon I can make it.
I don't like school because I spend nearly half my day, basically the main part of the day, in a dreary building, mostly learning about what the electromagnetic spectrum is, or some other crap like that. As my friend Grandprix said a few nights ago, it probably will be worth it when it's over, but at the moment I'd really rather be at home, adding to my next story (which is coming along well, but I don't have enough damn time to add to it,) than being in school learning how to work out sixteen to the power of two thirds.
Thursday was the worst. We were in week B, and that meant that my lessons that day were, in this order: German, French, Chemistry, PE and Physics. I don't like German because the whole of my class is full of 'hardnuts,' who muck about all the time, and in the end it's pure havoc, which unfortunately, I can't get involved in because I'm not a member of the 'cool' gang. I'm good at French, but the lessons often bore me, and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. So, the morning is usually hell for me.
Chemistry is boring, but PE was fun (very good, had fun playing tennis,) and Biology...well, the teacher is bad enough, and it's got to be one of the most dull lessons ever. Overall, school just makes me tired. I'm learning stuff (half the time) I don't particularly want, or need, to learn, and it depresses me. I do have fun occasionally, I have lots of friends including two 'newish' ones, who are a real laugh. But this means the teachers split us up all the time, so that's the end of that...This is possibly my first rant about something, although I expect I'll disagree with what I've written in a few years time.
Tonight I just feel...tired. Uninspired. My post count is visibly falling as I have less time to come on the forums, and also less 'need' to come on them. I would like to, but at the moment I'm just not interested in anything being written. Perhaps this is why I'm droning on in here...I had an e-mail from my ex-girlfriend the other night. A few of you on here, if you happened to read the topic on FOG Prime I wrote a while back, will know the story of how I tried to get her back. Desperate? No, it was just I really liked being around her. Do I regret doing it (as in asking her out again)?? Sort of. I know it's good to get it out in the open, but sometimes I wish I still had hope...if I wasn't so damn unconfident (blame that on infant school,) perhaps I'd be a little happier.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. This is stupid, to be honest. Letting out all my feelings on you guys. Why do I do it? Perhaps it's the only way I can. In fact, it is the only way. No, actually. I can talk to God about these things...and the Christian youth group I go to. But it's still hard...I feel much more confident on here...well, I feel total confidence with God, but any other Christian will know how it's easier to spill your emotions out on another person, as they will (hopefully) give you a direct answer.
I'm typing here with no direction whatsoever...just typing whatever comes to my mind. I guess it's a way of getting away from the stress of everyday life...escapism, for want of a better term. Gah...tomorrow's sunday...where did today go? Who the hell made the weekend 2 days, and the working week 5 days?
I should probably stop typing now, as I expect I'm either making you all depressed, or I'm just boring you. I'm probably going over the top...I probably don't feel as bad as I think I do. I felt fine about half an hour ago, and then suddenly all of this came out.
Well, if you have read all the way down to here, then I thank you kindly. I have met some of my true friends on here, and these forums have become so much more important to me than just winning prizes and discussing what console is the best. So once again, thank you.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
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Thanks Dr Duck, and don't worry, I will stick with it.
I just realised that I just came on here and wrote about myself. :D
I WAS talking to Ant about this before I replied, honestly!
Really!
Gah. :0)
I WAS talking to Ant about this before I replied, honestly!
Really!
Gah. :0)
Ant,
i know it's only one opinion of many, but i don't think you need to be concerned with whether or not to write here as an outlet, i think everyone's happy to listen, and help if they can.
For my two pence worth, i'd still try to get as much as possible out of the a-levels. The thing is that later on people are going to judge you (usually unfairly, but that's how it goes) on academic grades. At least if you gave it your best you can stand by your grades, and you won't have to look back wishing you'd put in the effort when you could change things.
I hope you do make it as a writer (maybe i'll see you at a signing on a rainy day in birmingham : ^), but whether you do or not, i think there's a good chance you'll be affected by whatever grades you end up with, and i don't want to sound like one of those people who endlessly say how if they could have their time again, they'd have been working so much harder, but at the same time, i've got to stick with the keeping at it advice.
Keep your head up
i know it's only one opinion of many, but i don't think you need to be concerned with whether or not to write here as an outlet, i think everyone's happy to listen, and help if they can.
For my two pence worth, i'd still try to get as much as possible out of the a-levels. The thing is that later on people are going to judge you (usually unfairly, but that's how it goes) on academic grades. At least if you gave it your best you can stand by your grades, and you won't have to look back wishing you'd put in the effort when you could change things.
I hope you do make it as a writer (maybe i'll see you at a signing on a rainy day in birmingham : ^), but whether you do or not, i think there's a good chance you'll be affected by whatever grades you end up with, and i don't want to sound like one of those people who endlessly say how if they could have their time again, they'd have been working so much harder, but at the same time, i've got to stick with the keeping at it advice.
Keep your head up
Good on ya Grix, just see what happens. If it doesn't work out, there'll still be other options (I think, to be honest, I don't know what I'm talking about.) {:)
And I was gonna mention something else you said, but we're talking about it on MSN so there we go.
And I was gonna mention something else you said, but we're talking about it on MSN so there we go.
I now feel I'm at one of the most bizzare points I will ever be in, in all my life. I can't sleep, can't eat, can't exercise. I'm losing all imagination and I can't really focus on anything, mentally or with my eyes.
Maths is still irritating me. Technology at least I'm actually enjoying and getting into, but then I've got Information Technology which is the worst subject in the world. Apparently people are now using credit cards to pay for grocerys.
What else is there? Well, I'm seeing things again, which is never a good sign. I think I mentioned this before, but it's still as bad. School work as mentioned is piling up, and while others are happily away doing it, I really can't see any point at all to it, and I don't think I ever will. I've got a IT project that I've yet to start and was supposed to be handed in before the holidays, I have a seven hour Maths homework that I haven't done, and I seem really crap at designing, but at least I'm enjoying it.
Meanwhile, at least my Fog Story Animation is beginning to take shape. I spend half the time thinking about it, thinking of how a scene could be set, or little jokes I could add into it. It's great fun, I'm glad I started it, but it IS effecting everything else I do, but I will NOT stop doing it.
There is something else I can't write on here because of the fact that someone can't read it, but it's what I think about the other half of the time. Don't worry, it's nothing to do with you foggers.
Then what?
I've got to go to college in less than a year, and I've got to send off my UCAS form now. Yes, now.
Apart from not having very good grades last year which I can easily blame on the fact that I was ill but I can't, [Which were: Physics: C, Maths: D, Tech: E, IT: C]... ok, they weren't that bad, people do get a lot worse, but it's not good enough for me. Especially that tech grade, which really disturbed me. I later found out though that I failed the exam and case study, both of which I can't stand, so that's not so bad.
So not only do I not really have the grades to upgrade my A2's to a decent state so I can actually get the points to go to do the course that I want to do: [Computer Games Dev], I'm also having trouble writing a personal statement, which is the most damn awful thing in the world.
I'm very good at saying I'm crap. But that's not what a personal statement is about. It's about saying how utterly wonderful you are and why you make a difference to the world.
I'm really considering sending it off with a single sentence which says: "I'm not that naÔve." and see what happens. I reckon it would do better than me saying "I first realised I wanted to make games when I was nine years old and an angel spoke to me and told me about my place on earth..."
It's a load of crap, and I want nothing to do with it. But yet it has to be done, and now.
So then there's the thought of not going to college, which I think will be crap anyway, and just staying home and learning on my own.
But I need the experience... and I can't just walk into a job. I don't think.
Actually, I'm thinking of just applying to Rareware for a job. I love Pembrokeshire, and I don't want to leave here, but if I am to have any future I must. Rareware would be an excellent experience, much more so than doing a course that's underfunded anyway, I think.
And then I just sit around thinking that "what's the point I'm not going to do anything anyway", and get all depressed and write stuff like this.
Gah... too much on my mind, really bad for me. I'm going to apply for a job to Rareware now, and see what happens.
Maths is still irritating me. Technology at least I'm actually enjoying and getting into, but then I've got Information Technology which is the worst subject in the world. Apparently people are now using credit cards to pay for grocerys.
What else is there? Well, I'm seeing things again, which is never a good sign. I think I mentioned this before, but it's still as bad. School work as mentioned is piling up, and while others are happily away doing it, I really can't see any point at all to it, and I don't think I ever will. I've got a IT project that I've yet to start and was supposed to be handed in before the holidays, I have a seven hour Maths homework that I haven't done, and I seem really crap at designing, but at least I'm enjoying it.
Meanwhile, at least my Fog Story Animation is beginning to take shape. I spend half the time thinking about it, thinking of how a scene could be set, or little jokes I could add into it. It's great fun, I'm glad I started it, but it IS effecting everything else I do, but I will NOT stop doing it.
There is something else I can't write on here because of the fact that someone can't read it, but it's what I think about the other half of the time. Don't worry, it's nothing to do with you foggers.
Then what?
I've got to go to college in less than a year, and I've got to send off my UCAS form now. Yes, now.
Apart from not having very good grades last year which I can easily blame on the fact that I was ill but I can't, [Which were: Physics: C, Maths: D, Tech: E, IT: C]... ok, they weren't that bad, people do get a lot worse, but it's not good enough for me. Especially that tech grade, which really disturbed me. I later found out though that I failed the exam and case study, both of which I can't stand, so that's not so bad.
So not only do I not really have the grades to upgrade my A2's to a decent state so I can actually get the points to go to do the course that I want to do: [Computer Games Dev], I'm also having trouble writing a personal statement, which is the most damn awful thing in the world.
I'm very good at saying I'm crap. But that's not what a personal statement is about. It's about saying how utterly wonderful you are and why you make a difference to the world.
I'm really considering sending it off with a single sentence which says: "I'm not that naÔve." and see what happens. I reckon it would do better than me saying "I first realised I wanted to make games when I was nine years old and an angel spoke to me and told me about my place on earth..."
It's a load of crap, and I want nothing to do with it. But yet it has to be done, and now.
So then there's the thought of not going to college, which I think will be crap anyway, and just staying home and learning on my own.
But I need the experience... and I can't just walk into a job. I don't think.
Actually, I'm thinking of just applying to Rareware for a job. I love Pembrokeshire, and I don't want to leave here, but if I am to have any future I must. Rareware would be an excellent experience, much more so than doing a course that's underfunded anyway, I think.
And then I just sit around thinking that "what's the point I'm not going to do anything anyway", and get all depressed and write stuff like this.
Gah... too much on my mind, really bad for me. I'm going to apply for a job to Rareware now, and see what happens.
Heh, thanks for the comments guys. I'll take all your advice into account.
Also, Goatboy, I'm glad to hear you're in a band, and enjoying it. Keep me posted on how it all goes.
Also, Goatboy, I'm glad to hear you're in a band, and enjoying it. Keep me posted on how it all goes.
See Ant, you're already two steps ahead of most of the people at your school, because you know what you want to do in life.
You want to write.
You don't need fancy degrees or A levels to write,you need imagination and an ability that just comes from somewhere.
Which you have.
The rest of school? Learning things like the electromagnetic spectrum, or algebra or *drones on and on*, you will not need.
So just keep thinking that.
Don't sweat it, doesn't matter if you can't get the hang of biology because you ain't gonna go study rainfall in the amazon basin.
Concentrate on the things that mean something to you.
At least you know what you want to do, and once you get to college, you can tailor your classes to that.
I hated school, it bored me and like you, I sat there thinking "I don't care about photosynthesis." and I haven't used it once.
I kept at it, because you can never have too much knowledge, but it didn't bother me.
I then got to college, and took Film Studies, English Literature and (on the advice of parent and tutor) Law.
You realise that most of the stuff in school is pointless and uneccessary noise - that gives you an advantage mate.
Concentrate on your writing, that's where your heart lays.
I'm in a band that is getting some major attention.
I didn't learn about drums at school, I just decided that was what I wanted to do.
My grades werent brilliant, my job history hasn't hit the dizzy heights others expect of me.
But I'm having the time of my life right now, and it's got nothing to do with the 15 years I spent at school.
So relax, play video games and write.
Just think of school as a detention for a few more years.
It's pointless crap that is stopping you from getting on, but at least do what you are doing - learn stuff.
You can never, ever know too much.
You want to write.
You don't need fancy degrees or A levels to write,you need imagination and an ability that just comes from somewhere.
Which you have.
The rest of school? Learning things like the electromagnetic spectrum, or algebra or *drones on and on*, you will not need.
So just keep thinking that.
Don't sweat it, doesn't matter if you can't get the hang of biology because you ain't gonna go study rainfall in the amazon basin.
Concentrate on the things that mean something to you.
At least you know what you want to do, and once you get to college, you can tailor your classes to that.
I hated school, it bored me and like you, I sat there thinking "I don't care about photosynthesis." and I haven't used it once.
I kept at it, because you can never have too much knowledge, but it didn't bother me.
I then got to college, and took Film Studies, English Literature and (on the advice of parent and tutor) Law.
You realise that most of the stuff in school is pointless and uneccessary noise - that gives you an advantage mate.
Concentrate on your writing, that's where your heart lays.
I'm in a band that is getting some major attention.
I didn't learn about drums at school, I just decided that was what I wanted to do.
My grades werent brilliant, my job history hasn't hit the dizzy heights others expect of me.
But I'm having the time of my life right now, and it's got nothing to do with the 15 years I spent at school.
So relax, play video games and write.
Just think of school as a detention for a few more years.
It's pointless crap that is stopping you from getting on, but at least do what you are doing - learn stuff.
You can never, ever know too much.
Well the best bit of advice that I can give you is this:
Enjoy what you have, you never know when you may loose it.
Enjoy what you have, you never know when you may loose it.
Well Ant, it seem that you are not having... the best times of your life, granted?
Well there is only one bit of advice anyone can give you.. Stick with it, (Life) You can't get away from school until you are of that magical age (16) So you cant do much about it.
As you said to me on MSN. "I hope you feel better tomorrow" :-)
Still, just wait for the good days and try to be in a good mood for the bad days. I know its a pile of crap when you are learning about some rubbish that you will NEVER use.
Get a revision guide. Much better than a fat teacher going on about nothing. I can't really help you about becoming an author because I am going to be something totally different... Other than.. try and get a good grade for english.
You will feel better. Well after talking to me you will :o)
Well there is only one bit of advice anyone can give you.. Stick with it, (Life) You can't get away from school until you are of that magical age (16) So you cant do much about it.
As you said to me on MSN. "I hope you feel better tomorrow" :-)
Still, just wait for the good days and try to be in a good mood for the bad days. I know its a pile of crap when you are learning about some rubbish that you will NEVER use.
Get a revision guide. Much better than a fat teacher going on about nothing. I can't really help you about becoming an author because I am going to be something totally different... Other than.. try and get a good grade for english.
You will feel better. Well after talking to me you will :o)
*Sigh* I don't really feel like typing tonight, to be honest I can't be bothered to do anything. So why am I writing this? I don't know myself...perhaps I just want to let my feelings about life at the moment spill out. I've already done it on the WWF Forum, but here is more appropriate.
School's been getting me down lately. I wake up every morning and sigh, some could say dreading the day ahead of me. Why? Well, I think the problem is I already know what I want to do in life. I decided a few weeks ago that I want to use my writing skills to their full potential-my final target to become a successful author. I'm not too sure how I'm going to get there, but with some help from friends (people I know in person and people from these chat forums,) and from God, I reckon I can make it.
I don't like school because I spend nearly half my day, basically the main part of the day, in a dreary building, mostly learning about what the electromagnetic spectrum is, or some other crap like that. As my friend Grandprix said a few nights ago, it probably will be worth it when it's over, but at the moment I'd really rather be at home, adding to my next story (which is coming along well, but I don't have enough damn time to add to it,) than being in school learning how to work out sixteen to the power of two thirds.
Thursday was the worst. We were in week B, and that meant that my lessons that day were, in this order: German, French, Chemistry, PE and Physics. I don't like German because the whole of my class is full of 'hardnuts,' who muck about all the time, and in the end it's pure havoc, which unfortunately, I can't get involved in because I'm not a member of the 'cool' gang. I'm good at French, but the lessons often bore me, and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. So, the morning is usually hell for me.
Chemistry is boring, but PE was fun (very good, had fun playing tennis,) and Biology...well, the teacher is bad enough, and it's got to be one of the most dull lessons ever. Overall, school just makes me tired. I'm learning stuff (half the time) I don't particularly want, or need, to learn, and it depresses me. I do have fun occasionally, I have lots of friends including two 'newish' ones, who are a real laugh. But this means the teachers split us up all the time, so that's the end of that...This is possibly my first rant about something, although I expect I'll disagree with what I've written in a few years time.
Tonight I just feel...tired. Uninspired. My post count is visibly falling as I have less time to come on the forums, and also less 'need' to come on them. I would like to, but at the moment I'm just not interested in anything being written. Perhaps this is why I'm droning on in here...I had an e-mail from my ex-girlfriend the other night. A few of you on here, if you happened to read the topic on FOG Prime I wrote a while back, will know the story of how I tried to get her back. Desperate? No, it was just I really liked being around her. Do I regret doing it (as in asking her out again)?? Sort of. I know it's good to get it out in the open, but sometimes I wish I still had hope...if I wasn't so damn unconfident (blame that on infant school,) perhaps I'd be a little happier.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. This is stupid, to be honest. Letting out all my feelings on you guys. Why do I do it? Perhaps it's the only way I can. In fact, it is the only way. No, actually. I can talk to God about these things...and the Christian youth group I go to. But it's still hard...I feel much more confident on here...well, I feel total confidence with God, but any other Christian will know how it's easier to spill your emotions out on another person, as they will (hopefully) give you a direct answer.
I'm typing here with no direction whatsoever...just typing whatever comes to my mind. I guess it's a way of getting away from the stress of everyday life...escapism, for want of a better term. Gah...tomorrow's sunday...where did today go? Who the hell made the weekend 2 days, and the working week 5 days?
I should probably stop typing now, as I expect I'm either making you all depressed, or I'm just boring you. I'm probably going over the top...I probably don't feel as bad as I think I do. I felt fine about half an hour ago, and then suddenly all of this came out.
Well, if you have read all the way down to here, then I thank you kindly. I have met some of my true friends on here, and these forums have become so much more important to me than just winning prizes and discussing what console is the best. So once again, thank you.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
School's been getting me down lately. I wake up every morning and sigh, some could say dreading the day ahead of me. Why? Well, I think the problem is I already know what I want to do in life. I decided a few weeks ago that I want to use my writing skills to their full potential-my final target to become a successful author. I'm not too sure how I'm going to get there, but with some help from friends (people I know in person and people from these chat forums,) and from God, I reckon I can make it.
I don't like school because I spend nearly half my day, basically the main part of the day, in a dreary building, mostly learning about what the electromagnetic spectrum is, or some other crap like that. As my friend Grandprix said a few nights ago, it probably will be worth it when it's over, but at the moment I'd really rather be at home, adding to my next story (which is coming along well, but I don't have enough damn time to add to it,) than being in school learning how to work out sixteen to the power of two thirds.
Thursday was the worst. We were in week B, and that meant that my lessons that day were, in this order: German, French, Chemistry, PE and Physics. I don't like German because the whole of my class is full of 'hardnuts,' who muck about all the time, and in the end it's pure havoc, which unfortunately, I can't get involved in because I'm not a member of the 'cool' gang. I'm good at French, but the lessons often bore me, and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. So, the morning is usually hell for me.
Chemistry is boring, but PE was fun (very good, had fun playing tennis,) and Biology...well, the teacher is bad enough, and it's got to be one of the most dull lessons ever. Overall, school just makes me tired. I'm learning stuff (half the time) I don't particularly want, or need, to learn, and it depresses me. I do have fun occasionally, I have lots of friends including two 'newish' ones, who are a real laugh. But this means the teachers split us up all the time, so that's the end of that...This is possibly my first rant about something, although I expect I'll disagree with what I've written in a few years time.
Tonight I just feel...tired. Uninspired. My post count is visibly falling as I have less time to come on the forums, and also less 'need' to come on them. I would like to, but at the moment I'm just not interested in anything being written. Perhaps this is why I'm droning on in here...I had an e-mail from my ex-girlfriend the other night. A few of you on here, if you happened to read the topic on FOG Prime I wrote a while back, will know the story of how I tried to get her back. Desperate? No, it was just I really liked being around her. Do I regret doing it (as in asking her out again)?? Sort of. I know it's good to get it out in the open, but sometimes I wish I still had hope...if I wasn't so damn unconfident (blame that on infant school,) perhaps I'd be a little happier.
Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better. This is stupid, to be honest. Letting out all my feelings on you guys. Why do I do it? Perhaps it's the only way I can. In fact, it is the only way. No, actually. I can talk to God about these things...and the Christian youth group I go to. But it's still hard...I feel much more confident on here...well, I feel total confidence with God, but any other Christian will know how it's easier to spill your emotions out on another person, as they will (hopefully) give you a direct answer.
I'm typing here with no direction whatsoever...just typing whatever comes to my mind. I guess it's a way of getting away from the stress of everyday life...escapism, for want of a better term. Gah...tomorrow's sunday...where did today go? Who the hell made the weekend 2 days, and the working week 5 days?
I should probably stop typing now, as I expect I'm either making you all depressed, or I'm just boring you. I'm probably going over the top...I probably don't feel as bad as I think I do. I felt fine about half an hour ago, and then suddenly all of this came out.
Well, if you have read all the way down to here, then I thank you kindly. I have met some of my true friends on here, and these forums have become so much more important to me than just winning prizes and discussing what console is the best. So once again, thank you.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
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