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I have games to play and even time to play them at the moment. I have a house with a nice garden. I have a lovely wife.
Why, then, does my mind wane towards depression and anxiety? Surely I should be happy with my lot?
It's strange, but my first bout of true depression probably didn't start until I went to Uni. I had been depressed before, sure, but things always seemed to perk up around the corner and I was young and frightened of a world I didn't understand.
It was when I went to university and everyone else seemed to have an idea of where they were going and a way of getting what, and more importantly who, they wanted. I was alone, though I was with friends. Looking back on it I never really saw at the time how many people wanted to help me and how many friends I had then. It was a dark time, as if a single black cloud had dropped from the sky and enveloped me, I could see no logic through this cloud and it turned every rainbow to black.
It went, of course, as depression does. It took the strength of a good friend to snap me out of it though and I'll never forget that. Things really took a turn for the better from then on, with one small exception that involved a girl (again!).
For ages I've been ok, but now I feel something familiar creep over me again and I can't see the reason for it. I expect it's partly stress over the job I have hanging from a thread and all the things that need doing from day to day. I guess it could also be that I don't think I've found my true self yet, but I know that I can't let this get me down.
The other problem is that a lot of my older friends are now far away and I only get to see them every so often, I have some new friends too, but they aren't always around, they have other friends too. I can't exactly talk to my wife about it as she has a habit of getting depressed too and I don't want that, she has enough to worry about looking after me.
And don't ask me why I'm writing this either, but writing always helps, particularly when there's an audience. I just hope this doesn't get worse because last time it nearly wrecked my life and my best friends are too far away this time....
Why, then, does my mind wane towards depression and anxiety? Surely I should be happy with my lot?
It's strange, but my first bout of true depression probably didn't start until I went to Uni. I had been depressed before, sure, but things always seemed to perk up around the corner and I was young and frightened of a world I didn't understand.
It was when I went to university and everyone else seemed to have an idea of where they were going and a way of getting what, and more importantly who, they wanted. I was alone, though I was with friends. Looking back on it I never really saw at the time how many people wanted to help me and how many friends I had then. It was a dark time, as if a single black cloud had dropped from the sky and enveloped me, I could see no logic through this cloud and it turned every rainbow to black.
It went, of course, as depression does. It took the strength of a good friend to snap me out of it though and I'll never forget that. Things really took a turn for the better from then on, with one small exception that involved a girl (again!).
For ages I've been ok, but now I feel something familiar creep over me again and I can't see the reason for it. I expect it's partly stress over the job I have hanging from a thread and all the things that need doing from day to day. I guess it could also be that I don't think I've found my true self yet, but I know that I can't let this get me down.
The other problem is that a lot of my older friends are now far away and I only get to see them every so often, I have some new friends too, but they aren't always around, they have other friends too. I can't exactly talk to my wife about it as she has a habit of getting depressed too and I don't want that, she has enough to worry about looking after me.
And don't ask me why I'm writing this either, but writing always helps, particularly when there's an audience. I just hope this doesn't get worse because last time it nearly wrecked my life and my best friends are too far away this time....
I can't help feeling time is passing by quickly.. everyday seems to go by so quickly!
I get depressed sometimes, nowhere near as much as I used to. I guess I used to get depressed much more when I was younger because I never truly believed it would pass.
The worst thing is believing that you just get stuck in a circle and that's the only way to be. In fairness, getting a bit depressed every now and again keeps me stable, I think it's pretty healthy to do so, for me, anyway.
I dream a lot, and I find it's a good idea to follow them as much as I can, no matter where it takes me. Life's too short, and thinking wastes time.
The worst thing is believing that you just get stuck in a circle and that's the only way to be. In fairness, getting a bit depressed every now and again keeps me stable, I think it's pretty healthy to do so, for me, anyway.
I dream a lot, and I find it's a good idea to follow them as much as I can, no matter where it takes me. Life's too short, and thinking wastes time.
I can't escape feelings of emptiness and irrelevance. So much so that I don't fight it anymore.
Meaning is like a slippery snake - I can only hold on to it for a short time... No matter what I think, what I do, I always return to the same place: that place of shadow where meaning fades.
Transience is all areas - I can't see how this life can be anything but.
Meaning is like a slippery snake - I can only hold on to it for a short time... No matter what I think, what I do, I always return to the same place: that place of shadow where meaning fades.
Transience is all areas - I can't see how this life can be anything but.
You'll get through it.
There's always sadness, I think that's might be what makes us human. It's always there, all the time, in everybody. Don't be fooled by how everyone else acts, it's in them too.
There's always sadness, I think that's might be what makes us human. It's always there, all the time, in everybody. Don't be fooled by how everyone else acts, it's in them too.
Seasonally Affected Disorder.
Yeah, I think I might get a bit of that too. Or it's just been a few coincidences. I don't know.
If it is S.A.D., try to keep stuff brightly lit. Maybe think about some of those special daylight-simulating bulbs.
Whatever the cause, I find it helps to talk. It sounds like you do too.
We'll always be here to listen.
I will anyway. A couple of times recently I've had to depend on the forum for that. It makes you feel like a bit of a needy reject, but it gets the job done :^)
Yeah, I think I might get a bit of that too. Or it's just been a few coincidences. I don't know.
If it is S.A.D., try to keep stuff brightly lit. Maybe think about some of those special daylight-simulating bulbs.
Whatever the cause, I find it helps to talk. It sounds like you do too.
We'll always be here to listen.
I will anyway. A couple of times recently I've had to depend on the forum for that. It makes you feel like a bit of a needy reject, but it gets the job done :^)
Not doubting any of it but this time of year depresses me easily and I think it's know as S.A.D. Not sure what it stands for but it's something to do with the seasons.
I'd love to be able to offer advice but there's not much I can say except the obvious. Maybe a little alone time will help clear your head a bit. Maybe just an hour or so to yourself with maybe a little background music. That helps sometimes. If it makes it worse then I take no responsibilty for the use of the above actions (just covering myself).
Give it time and when you wake up in the morrning remeber, it's a new day. Won't make you feel good for long but those few seconds are good while they last.
I'd love to be able to offer advice but there's not much I can say except the obvious. Maybe a little alone time will help clear your head a bit. Maybe just an hour or so to yourself with maybe a little background music. That helps sometimes. If it makes it worse then I take no responsibilty for the use of the above actions (just covering myself).
Give it time and when you wake up in the morrning remeber, it's a new day. Won't make you feel good for long but those few seconds are good while they last.
Chin up, mate! I think when the weather turns and we slowly descend into winter we all get a bit maudling. Don't get me wrong: I'm not dimissing the way you feel but I think it affects some people more than others.
Have you considered seeing your doctor? Maybe he/she can suggest some kind of therapy. I sometimes get down and usually a damn good aromtherapy massage goes some way to turning the tide.
We're here if you need us ...
Have you considered seeing your doctor? Maybe he/she can suggest some kind of therapy. I sometimes get down and usually a damn good aromtherapy massage goes some way to turning the tide.
We're here if you need us ...
Aw, poor thing don't be sad. Easier said than done eh? The blues can affect anyone no matter what they have in life. Whats going on with your job then? bet thats getting to you more than you think
I have games to play and even time to play them at the moment. I have a house with a nice garden. I have a lovely wife.
Why, then, does my mind wane towards depression and anxiety? Surely I should be happy with my lot?
It's strange, but my first bout of true depression probably didn't start until I went to Uni. I had been depressed before, sure, but things always seemed to perk up around the corner and I was young and frightened of a world I didn't understand.
It was when I went to university and everyone else seemed to have an idea of where they were going and a way of getting what, and more importantly who, they wanted. I was alone, though I was with friends. Looking back on it I never really saw at the time how many people wanted to help me and how many friends I had then. It was a dark time, as if a single black cloud had dropped from the sky and enveloped me, I could see no logic through this cloud and it turned every rainbow to black.
It went, of course, as depression does. It took the strength of a good friend to snap me out of it though and I'll never forget that. Things really took a turn for the better from then on, with one small exception that involved a girl (again!).
For ages I've been ok, but now I feel something familiar creep over me again and I can't see the reason for it. I expect it's partly stress over the job I have hanging from a thread and all the things that need doing from day to day. I guess it could also be that I don't think I've found my true self yet, but I know that I can't let this get me down.
The other problem is that a lot of my older friends are now far away and I only get to see them every so often, I have some new friends too, but they aren't always around, they have other friends too. I can't exactly talk to my wife about it as she has a habit of getting depressed too and I don't want that, she has enough to worry about looking after me.
And don't ask me why I'm writing this either, but writing always helps, particularly when there's an audience. I just hope this doesn't get worse because last time it nearly wrecked my life and my best friends are too far away this time....
Why, then, does my mind wane towards depression and anxiety? Surely I should be happy with my lot?
It's strange, but my first bout of true depression probably didn't start until I went to Uni. I had been depressed before, sure, but things always seemed to perk up around the corner and I was young and frightened of a world I didn't understand.
It was when I went to university and everyone else seemed to have an idea of where they were going and a way of getting what, and more importantly who, they wanted. I was alone, though I was with friends. Looking back on it I never really saw at the time how many people wanted to help me and how many friends I had then. It was a dark time, as if a single black cloud had dropped from the sky and enveloped me, I could see no logic through this cloud and it turned every rainbow to black.
It went, of course, as depression does. It took the strength of a good friend to snap me out of it though and I'll never forget that. Things really took a turn for the better from then on, with one small exception that involved a girl (again!).
For ages I've been ok, but now I feel something familiar creep over me again and I can't see the reason for it. I expect it's partly stress over the job I have hanging from a thread and all the things that need doing from day to day. I guess it could also be that I don't think I've found my true self yet, but I know that I can't let this get me down.
The other problem is that a lot of my older friends are now far away and I only get to see them every so often, I have some new friends too, but they aren't always around, they have other friends too. I can't exactly talk to my wife about it as she has a habit of getting depressed too and I don't want that, she has enough to worry about looking after me.
And don't ask me why I'm writing this either, but writing always helps, particularly when there's an audience. I just hope this doesn't get worse because last time it nearly wrecked my life and my best friends are too far away this time....