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The text below was written in a drunken fit of angst last night. I didn't want to post it but I made myself promise to, while I was drunk.
Note to self: Don't make promises when you're wasted.
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I feel an angry, nervous disposition simmering within me. I cannot decide what I'm feeling; maybe it's the all too familiar period of drunkenness polluting my brain. I don't know and, quite frankly, I don't bloody care.
So what I wish to say is this:
You only get one shot at life - if circumstances are against you, drop your "friends" and go out and meet new people. Don't be content with associating with the same people just because you feel a moral obligation to be with them. It's your life, not theirs. Pursue your own interests and to hell with anyone who thinks otherwise.
I understand the consequences of such rambles and the inevitable rash of responses it might provoke. This thought has hit me, like a bullet from the blue; we have no friends on this Earth, only acquaintances. I'm actually writing this after everyone has crashed out in a quiet solitude, a period of reflection. There are my emotions coming to the forefront of my existence and, as such, I'm not afraid to transfer all I've written tonight on this piece of unruled paper, onto a computer screen the next morning because they are the embodiment of my core emotions and honestly encapsulate what I'm feeling at this point in time.
Deciphering my script is a problem in itself; writing while drunk is fairly difficult.
Tonight (or this morning - it's 2.00am when I wrote this) I made quite possibly the greatest decision in my short, unfulfilled life; I made the decision to acquire my glory days back. So what on God's hallowed turf am I rambling on about? Quite simply, my dreary, non-existent, formulaic manner of a life has come to an end. Videogames shall be cast by the wayside and become a passing interest rather than a quest for all conquering dominion. I shall try to get out more, socialise with people, teach myself new skills and generally do anything I can to better myself. I shall take more of an interest in worldly matters, I shall try and wisely guide others.
"Shut your cynical, gesticulating, raving-mad trap, Unbeliever! What are you on about?"
Good question. As I sit here watching the despicable Mortal Kombat advert, I've realised videogames are not a be-all or end-all to life. There is more to life than this.
I went out with my friend (and other mates) and his girlfriend to celebrate her 25th birthday last night. I've known them all since my days at university which was 5 years ago. All of us were having a multipurpose discussion on life; you know what I mean, the type of drunken obtuse conference you start to endeavour to evoke some sympathy or passion in light of your moribund plight.
I constantly wonder about my options and my "breaks" in life. I wonder about what would have happened to my life if I'd ventured up another juncture rather than the path I'm on now. How every decision will have a different reaction or consequence on my life. But I'm missing the point. Although I feel I know some of you as "friends" or at least acquaintances, I've grasped the inherent meaning of our existence; to go forth, multiply and teach.
We won't all be here a year from now, indeed, I can't guarantee I will be posting here like a rampant fiend a year from now, but I've seen a close-knit community in the time that I have been here. A community full of wit, anger, exasperation, frustration and many more adjectives/superlatives that I'm too drunk to write out.
Most of us have never met each other but, through the power of dialogue, have managed to enrapture other persons and influence their thinking. I feel good knowing that there are unknown (to me) persons out there who will back me up in an argument or, at the very least, agree with my sentiments having never met me. I feel a great pride knowing that there are people out there who I can liken myself to. I don't usually write long posts but I felt like saying this; you've enriched my life with your presence and made me feel accepted in an area that I have no real claim to.
Discussion, analysis and rational (or irrational if you like) debate is healthy for the human condition and an essential part of life. For if we don't try to further ourselves or teach/guide others then what can we be proud of? I'm not too religious in any way or form as some of you who know me might well know. This isn't a post about religion. In fact I don't know what it's about...
*stops writing to ruminate*
We will all drift apart eventually but our main goal should be to remember what we have learned from our time on these forums and how we can strive to be better as a result of this. I'll say one thing - I don't truly despise anyone on this site but if I disagree with someone, I'll speak my mind. Constant discussion engages the mind and is good for the soul.
So, in conclusion and to recap yet again a lengthy (and boring?) tirade, let's not forget about the talent scattered like debris across these forums and praise the unwittingly influential people who make me forget my problems, even if it's for a short space of time.
I think I'll go to bed now.
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Note to self: Don't make promises when you're wasted.
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I feel an angry, nervous disposition simmering within me. I cannot decide what I'm feeling; maybe it's the all too familiar period of drunkenness polluting my brain. I don't know and, quite frankly, I don't bloody care.
So what I wish to say is this:
You only get one shot at life - if circumstances are against you, drop your "friends" and go out and meet new people. Don't be content with associating with the same people just because you feel a moral obligation to be with them. It's your life, not theirs. Pursue your own interests and to hell with anyone who thinks otherwise.
I understand the consequences of such rambles and the inevitable rash of responses it might provoke. This thought has hit me, like a bullet from the blue; we have no friends on this Earth, only acquaintances. I'm actually writing this after everyone has crashed out in a quiet solitude, a period of reflection. There are my emotions coming to the forefront of my existence and, as such, I'm not afraid to transfer all I've written tonight on this piece of unruled paper, onto a computer screen the next morning because they are the embodiment of my core emotions and honestly encapsulate what I'm feeling at this point in time.
Deciphering my script is a problem in itself; writing while drunk is fairly difficult.
Tonight (or this morning - it's 2.00am when I wrote this) I made quite possibly the greatest decision in my short, unfulfilled life; I made the decision to acquire my glory days back. So what on God's hallowed turf am I rambling on about? Quite simply, my dreary, non-existent, formulaic manner of a life has come to an end. Videogames shall be cast by the wayside and become a passing interest rather than a quest for all conquering dominion. I shall try to get out more, socialise with people, teach myself new skills and generally do anything I can to better myself. I shall take more of an interest in worldly matters, I shall try and wisely guide others.
"Shut your cynical, gesticulating, raving-mad trap, Unbeliever! What are you on about?"
Good question. As I sit here watching the despicable Mortal Kombat advert, I've realised videogames are not a be-all or end-all to life. There is more to life than this.
I went out with my friend (and other mates) and his girlfriend to celebrate her 25th birthday last night. I've known them all since my days at university which was 5 years ago. All of us were having a multipurpose discussion on life; you know what I mean, the type of drunken obtuse conference you start to endeavour to evoke some sympathy or passion in light of your moribund plight.
I constantly wonder about my options and my "breaks" in life. I wonder about what would have happened to my life if I'd ventured up another juncture rather than the path I'm on now. How every decision will have a different reaction or consequence on my life. But I'm missing the point. Although I feel I know some of you as "friends" or at least acquaintances, I've grasped the inherent meaning of our existence; to go forth, multiply and teach.
We won't all be here a year from now, indeed, I can't guarantee I will be posting here like a rampant fiend a year from now, but I've seen a close-knit community in the time that I have been here. A community full of wit, anger, exasperation, frustration and many more adjectives/superlatives that I'm too drunk to write out.
Most of us have never met each other but, through the power of dialogue, have managed to enrapture other persons and influence their thinking. I feel good knowing that there are unknown (to me) persons out there who will back me up in an argument or, at the very least, agree with my sentiments having never met me. I feel a great pride knowing that there are people out there who I can liken myself to. I don't usually write long posts but I felt like saying this; you've enriched my life with your presence and made me feel accepted in an area that I have no real claim to.
Discussion, analysis and rational (or irrational if you like) debate is healthy for the human condition and an essential part of life. For if we don't try to further ourselves or teach/guide others then what can we be proud of? I'm not too religious in any way or form as some of you who know me might well know. This isn't a post about religion. In fact I don't know what it's about...
*stops writing to ruminate*
We will all drift apart eventually but our main goal should be to remember what we have learned from our time on these forums and how we can strive to be better as a result of this. I'll say one thing - I don't truly despise anyone on this site but if I disagree with someone, I'll speak my mind. Constant discussion engages the mind and is good for the soul.
So, in conclusion and to recap yet again a lengthy (and boring?) tirade, let's not forget about the talent scattered like debris across these forums and praise the unwittingly influential people who make me forget my problems, even if it's for a short space of time.
I think I'll go to bed now.
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Yeah very well written. You're quite the insightful frunk, aren't you? Over the last year or so I really have been moving further and further away from gaming. I only seem to be interested around Christmas as all the big games of the year come out and you find it hard to ignore. But that's a passing phase that's gone mid-January time. I've moved on to more things now, mainly film. I'm actualy just getting ready to start writing my first full length film script.
Considering that was a drunken message it is very well written and I must say couldn't agree more ( except the religious bit obviously !)
Deep, and impressively well written, considering you were intoxicated at the time. Certainly food for thought.
I too have come to the conclusion in recent times that being a "Gamer" isn't really something worth gloating about, and while having played games for some 17 odd years, I can say gaming has brought me some good times, I think that I should really start leaving those days behind and try to get on with my life proper.
Gaming isn't a reason to live, it's a pastime.
Further, I'm also trying to learn new skills and find ways to further my life beyond the stagnant pit of depravity it's become over the last year or so.
Again, well written, and I agree with a lot you've said there, and appreciate the veiled sentiment telling me how wonderful I am =P
I too have come to the conclusion in recent times that being a "Gamer" isn't really something worth gloating about, and while having played games for some 17 odd years, I can say gaming has brought me some good times, I think that I should really start leaving those days behind and try to get on with my life proper.
Gaming isn't a reason to live, it's a pastime.
Further, I'm also trying to learn new skills and find ways to further my life beyond the stagnant pit of depravity it's become over the last year or so.
Again, well written, and I agree with a lot you've said there, and appreciate the veiled sentiment telling me how wonderful I am =P
well quite an eye opener!
and quite a bit of writing too!
like you said you only have one shot of life so make the most of it!! thats absolutely correct. :-)
and quite a bit of writing too!
like you said you only have one shot of life so make the most of it!! thats absolutely correct. :-)
The text below was written in a drunken fit of angst last night. I didn't want to post it but I made myself promise to, while I was drunk.
Note to self: Don't make promises when you're wasted.
_______________________________________
I feel an angry, nervous disposition simmering within me. I cannot decide what I'm feeling; maybe it's the all too familiar period of drunkenness polluting my brain. I don't know and, quite frankly, I don't bloody care.
So what I wish to say is this:
You only get one shot at life - if circumstances are against you, drop your "friends" and go out and meet new people. Don't be content with associating with the same people just because you feel a moral obligation to be with them. It's your life, not theirs. Pursue your own interests and to hell with anyone who thinks otherwise.
I understand the consequences of such rambles and the inevitable rash of responses it might provoke. This thought has hit me, like a bullet from the blue; we have no friends on this Earth, only acquaintances. I'm actually writing this after everyone has crashed out in a quiet solitude, a period of reflection. There are my emotions coming to the forefront of my existence and, as such, I'm not afraid to transfer all I've written tonight on this piece of unruled paper, onto a computer screen the next morning because they are the embodiment of my core emotions and honestly encapsulate what I'm feeling at this point in time.
Deciphering my script is a problem in itself; writing while drunk is fairly difficult.
Tonight (or this morning - it's 2.00am when I wrote this) I made quite possibly the greatest decision in my short, unfulfilled life; I made the decision to acquire my glory days back. So what on God's hallowed turf am I rambling on about? Quite simply, my dreary, non-existent, formulaic manner of a life has come to an end. Videogames shall be cast by the wayside and become a passing interest rather than a quest for all conquering dominion. I shall try to get out more, socialise with people, teach myself new skills and generally do anything I can to better myself. I shall take more of an interest in worldly matters, I shall try and wisely guide others.
"Shut your cynical, gesticulating, raving-mad trap, Unbeliever! What are you on about?"
Good question. As I sit here watching the despicable Mortal Kombat advert, I've realised videogames are not a be-all or end-all to life. There is more to life than this.
I went out with my friend (and other mates) and his girlfriend to celebrate her 25th birthday last night. I've known them all since my days at university which was 5 years ago. All of us were having a multipurpose discussion on life; you know what I mean, the type of drunken obtuse conference you start to endeavour to evoke some sympathy or passion in light of your moribund plight.
I constantly wonder about my options and my "breaks" in life. I wonder about what would have happened to my life if I'd ventured up another juncture rather than the path I'm on now. How every decision will have a different reaction or consequence on my life. But I'm missing the point. Although I feel I know some of you as "friends" or at least acquaintances, I've grasped the inherent meaning of our existence; to go forth, multiply and teach.
We won't all be here a year from now, indeed, I can't guarantee I will be posting here like a rampant fiend a year from now, but I've seen a close-knit community in the time that I have been here. A community full of wit, anger, exasperation, frustration and many more adjectives/superlatives that I'm too drunk to write out.
Most of us have never met each other but, through the power of dialogue, have managed to enrapture other persons and influence their thinking. I feel good knowing that there are unknown (to me) persons out there who will back me up in an argument or, at the very least, agree with my sentiments having never met me. I feel a great pride knowing that there are people out there who I can liken myself to. I don't usually write long posts but I felt like saying this; you've enriched my life with your presence and made me feel accepted in an area that I have no real claim to.
Discussion, analysis and rational (or irrational if you like) debate is healthy for the human condition and an essential part of life. For if we don't try to further ourselves or teach/guide others then what can we be proud of? I'm not too religious in any way or form as some of you who know me might well know. This isn't a post about religion. In fact I don't know what it's about...
*stops writing to ruminate*
We will all drift apart eventually but our main goal should be to remember what we have learned from our time on these forums and how we can strive to be better as a result of this. I'll say one thing - I don't truly despise anyone on this site but if I disagree with someone, I'll speak my mind. Constant discussion engages the mind and is good for the soul.
So, in conclusion and to recap yet again a lengthy (and boring?) tirade, let's not forget about the talent scattered like debris across these forums and praise the unwittingly influential people who make me forget my problems, even if it's for a short space of time.
I think I'll go to bed now.
_______________________
Note to self: Don't make promises when you're wasted.
_______________________________________
I feel an angry, nervous disposition simmering within me. I cannot decide what I'm feeling; maybe it's the all too familiar period of drunkenness polluting my brain. I don't know and, quite frankly, I don't bloody care.
So what I wish to say is this:
You only get one shot at life - if circumstances are against you, drop your "friends" and go out and meet new people. Don't be content with associating with the same people just because you feel a moral obligation to be with them. It's your life, not theirs. Pursue your own interests and to hell with anyone who thinks otherwise.
I understand the consequences of such rambles and the inevitable rash of responses it might provoke. This thought has hit me, like a bullet from the blue; we have no friends on this Earth, only acquaintances. I'm actually writing this after everyone has crashed out in a quiet solitude, a period of reflection. There are my emotions coming to the forefront of my existence and, as such, I'm not afraid to transfer all I've written tonight on this piece of unruled paper, onto a computer screen the next morning because they are the embodiment of my core emotions and honestly encapsulate what I'm feeling at this point in time.
Deciphering my script is a problem in itself; writing while drunk is fairly difficult.
Tonight (or this morning - it's 2.00am when I wrote this) I made quite possibly the greatest decision in my short, unfulfilled life; I made the decision to acquire my glory days back. So what on God's hallowed turf am I rambling on about? Quite simply, my dreary, non-existent, formulaic manner of a life has come to an end. Videogames shall be cast by the wayside and become a passing interest rather than a quest for all conquering dominion. I shall try to get out more, socialise with people, teach myself new skills and generally do anything I can to better myself. I shall take more of an interest in worldly matters, I shall try and wisely guide others.
"Shut your cynical, gesticulating, raving-mad trap, Unbeliever! What are you on about?"
Good question. As I sit here watching the despicable Mortal Kombat advert, I've realised videogames are not a be-all or end-all to life. There is more to life than this.
I went out with my friend (and other mates) and his girlfriend to celebrate her 25th birthday last night. I've known them all since my days at university which was 5 years ago. All of us were having a multipurpose discussion on life; you know what I mean, the type of drunken obtuse conference you start to endeavour to evoke some sympathy or passion in light of your moribund plight.
I constantly wonder about my options and my "breaks" in life. I wonder about what would have happened to my life if I'd ventured up another juncture rather than the path I'm on now. How every decision will have a different reaction or consequence on my life. But I'm missing the point. Although I feel I know some of you as "friends" or at least acquaintances, I've grasped the inherent meaning of our existence; to go forth, multiply and teach.
We won't all be here a year from now, indeed, I can't guarantee I will be posting here like a rampant fiend a year from now, but I've seen a close-knit community in the time that I have been here. A community full of wit, anger, exasperation, frustration and many more adjectives/superlatives that I'm too drunk to write out.
Most of us have never met each other but, through the power of dialogue, have managed to enrapture other persons and influence their thinking. I feel good knowing that there are unknown (to me) persons out there who will back me up in an argument or, at the very least, agree with my sentiments having never met me. I feel a great pride knowing that there are people out there who I can liken myself to. I don't usually write long posts but I felt like saying this; you've enriched my life with your presence and made me feel accepted in an area that I have no real claim to.
Discussion, analysis and rational (or irrational if you like) debate is healthy for the human condition and an essential part of life. For if we don't try to further ourselves or teach/guide others then what can we be proud of? I'm not too religious in any way or form as some of you who know me might well know. This isn't a post about religion. In fact I don't know what it's about...
*stops writing to ruminate*
We will all drift apart eventually but our main goal should be to remember what we have learned from our time on these forums and how we can strive to be better as a result of this. I'll say one thing - I don't truly despise anyone on this site but if I disagree with someone, I'll speak my mind. Constant discussion engages the mind and is good for the soul.
So, in conclusion and to recap yet again a lengthy (and boring?) tirade, let's not forget about the talent scattered like debris across these forums and praise the unwittingly influential people who make me forget my problems, even if it's for a short space of time.
I think I'll go to bed now.
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