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Sorry for my topics all being based around the same damn thing, but I can't shut my damn head up.
What's wrong with failure that seems to put a butt on all ideas?
"I'm going to university to study biology, what are you doing?"
"I'm going for a job in Games Design at Rareware."
"No uni then?"
"No."
"What happens if you don't get the job?"
Argh.
You don't understand.
I've never really taken a risk in my life. Apart from the climbing out of windows scenario... nothing that could really, really affect my entire life from this day on.
I think it's damn time I took one.
My chance goes like so.
Everything that lies behind me, my exams, possibility of going to university, anything like that... that's going out the window. I will happily fail all my exams if I get this job, and I'm forced to work 19 hours a day to impossible deadlines. If I have the job, that's all I want.
But people don't seem to understand. If for one second, I suggest to myself, "right, here's plan B"... then I can then say "Ah well, there's always plan B".
With all crap that's thrown at me, not just from teachers, but students, and parents... It's easy to see "Hey, they're right, I better sit my exams in case I'm wrong."
I'm not wrong. I've never been more damn right in my life. I write this so often because I damn damn damn believe it.
But it's tempting not to. My confidence is pathetic, and I've got to do everything I can to give myself a high. I need to walk into my life and claim it. I can have no fear of failure, because I won't fail. Not JUST because I've got nothing to fall back on, but because I'm the best person for this job.
Hey, boundaryless, you think I'm crazy? I'm not crazy, I'm gritting my teeth and facing life, instead of wallowing in self pity and being held back by anyone who apparently knows me better than I do. People who judge their own failures against me, insulting me, telling me that I'm wrong to love.
You messed up your life by following the rules, I'm going to follow my own rules instead.
"I've never met a more pathetic bunch in my entire life. You fail once, and then give up on ever trying to do something special again."
"If you fail once, try again, find another dream, and follow it. Follow it with your heart, and don't give up. Think of how much you could have achieved in the time you've spent here."
Vyse - Skies of Arcadia.
Best game ever, did I ever tell you about it? :0)
What's wrong with failure that seems to put a butt on all ideas?
"I'm going to university to study biology, what are you doing?"
"I'm going for a job in Games Design at Rareware."
"No uni then?"
"No."
"What happens if you don't get the job?"
Argh.
You don't understand.
I've never really taken a risk in my life. Apart from the climbing out of windows scenario... nothing that could really, really affect my entire life from this day on.
I think it's damn time I took one.
My chance goes like so.
Everything that lies behind me, my exams, possibility of going to university, anything like that... that's going out the window. I will happily fail all my exams if I get this job, and I'm forced to work 19 hours a day to impossible deadlines. If I have the job, that's all I want.
But people don't seem to understand. If for one second, I suggest to myself, "right, here's plan B"... then I can then say "Ah well, there's always plan B".
With all crap that's thrown at me, not just from teachers, but students, and parents... It's easy to see "Hey, they're right, I better sit my exams in case I'm wrong."
I'm not wrong. I've never been more damn right in my life. I write this so often because I damn damn damn believe it.
But it's tempting not to. My confidence is pathetic, and I've got to do everything I can to give myself a high. I need to walk into my life and claim it. I can have no fear of failure, because I won't fail. Not JUST because I've got nothing to fall back on, but because I'm the best person for this job.
Hey, boundaryless, you think I'm crazy? I'm not crazy, I'm gritting my teeth and facing life, instead of wallowing in self pity and being held back by anyone who apparently knows me better than I do. People who judge their own failures against me, insulting me, telling me that I'm wrong to love.
You messed up your life by following the rules, I'm going to follow my own rules instead.
"I've never met a more pathetic bunch in my entire life. You fail once, and then give up on ever trying to do something special again."
"If you fail once, try again, find another dream, and follow it. Follow it with your heart, and don't give up. Think of how much you could have achieved in the time you've spent here."
Vyse - Skies of Arcadia.
Best game ever, did I ever tell you about it? :0)
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Wow. What a great post. How old are you Grix? You sound like me when I was 16, I'm nearly 26 now, and I've been through quite a bit, but I'm coming back to the idea of taking control of my own life. Be careful about wanting a job so much though, because you do end up losing control of your life bit by bit. It's hard to reclaim your life when you work 7.5 hours a day, never mind 19!
And you are so right about other people judging their own failures against you, there are so many negative people in this world, it was great to read a positive and meaningful post like yours.
And you are so right about other people judging their own failures against you, there are so many negative people in this world, it was great to read a positive and meaningful post like yours.
I kind of wrote about this yesterday in another thread, so I'll keep this reply short.
If you don't try you'll never know, and you can even look back fondly at what you could have been. If you don't try, you'll never lose the fact that it might have been, but the first steps towards it could well be the first steps to failure.
This, I have realised, is stupid. If you try and fail, you'll realise that it wasn't for you, and you'll find a different goal. If you really want it, you can get it. Unfortunately, people don't tell you that, just sit down and do as you're told. And do what they do, because you've just got to be normal. Bah.
If you don't try you'll never know, and you can even look back fondly at what you could have been. If you don't try, you'll never lose the fact that it might have been, but the first steps towards it could well be the first steps to failure.
This, I have realised, is stupid. If you try and fail, you'll realise that it wasn't for you, and you'll find a different goal. If you really want it, you can get it. Unfortunately, people don't tell you that, just sit down and do as you're told. And do what they do, because you've just got to be normal. Bah.
This is exactly why I'm going to be going to college this year with a bunch of people I don't know to sit some more years learning. Not that I want too but that I need to so I stand a chance of getting this job I want.
I have practically everything else I need except for this one qualification.
If I get the job I will be very happy indeed. Oh and if everything I want goes to plan then there's a slight chance that you and I Grix will bump into each other one day.
I have practically everything else I need except for this one qualification.
If I get the job I will be very happy indeed. Oh and if everything I want goes to plan then there's a slight chance that you and I Grix will bump into each other one day.
Sometimes you have to make that big leap. I've only done it once, and yes it totally blew up in my face and one might say it traumitised (sp?) me, but it has to be done. It's not bad to have a back-up plan I suppose, but...
Sorry, I can't think of much to say, since I've never really experienced it. I'm always in fear of failure.
Sorry, I can't think of much to say, since I've never really experienced it. I'm always in fear of failure.
Great idea, but where are we now? :0)
Apart from having limited knowledge in... everything, :0D, why would people take our advice?
As I said, really, really great idea, all ideas like this are great... but...
I'm not going to lie, I'll tell you the real reason why I don't want to do this.
I'm fed up of trying to inspire people to help me with an idea like this. I can say all I want, and they'll all go "yeah we help", and what happens? One or two of them do, and then drop away like flies.
If you want to set this up, I'll be with you all the way.
Apart from having limited knowledge in... everything, :0D, why would people take our advice?
As I said, really, really great idea, all ideas like this are great... but...
I'm not going to lie, I'll tell you the real reason why I don't want to do this.
I'm fed up of trying to inspire people to help me with an idea like this. I can say all I want, and they'll all go "yeah we help", and what happens? One or two of them do, and then drop away like flies.
If you want to set this up, I'll be with you all the way.
What do you think to starting a thread in Prime that helps people get where they want to go. I mean, we could ask people what they wanted to be, and then everyone could help where they could... i'm sure 500+ minds are better than one!
Example:
My name is GeekyGreg, and I want to write novels.
Hi, my name is Grix, here's how to get started.... Blah Blah Blah...
My name is Game: Good point Grix, Read this book as well greg, see if you can distinguish the styles on writing.
That sort of thing...
Just helping each other out.
Maybe not...
Example:
My name is GeekyGreg, and I want to write novels.
Hi, my name is Grix, here's how to get started.... Blah Blah Blah...
My name is Game: Good point Grix, Read this book as well greg, see if you can distinguish the styles on writing.
That sort of thing...
Just helping each other out.
Maybe not...
Yeah, let's hope Rareware feel the same way, eh? ;0)
And don't give up hope, follow your heart no matter what. Even if your parents disapprove, if you know this is you, do it.
And don't give up hope, follow your heart no matter what. Even if your parents disapprove, if you know this is you, do it.
Hope you get the job at Rare. You've got a good chance counting by the quality of your posts!
Jetster wrote:
> Anouther great post there Grix. I feel kind of the same way really,
> yes I may only be 14 but I want to give up everything and just
> concentrate on doing what I want to do, getting the exams I need then
> stuffing the rest. I'm not sure if that makes sence to any one as I
> cant really explain it propably.
It certanly makes sense to me. But i'm a year younger than you. My parents won't let me take any risks, though.
> Anouther great post there Grix. I feel kind of the same way really,
> yes I may only be 14 but I want to give up everything and just
> concentrate on doing what I want to do, getting the exams I need then
> stuffing the rest. I'm not sure if that makes sence to any one as I
> cant really explain it propably.
It certanly makes sense to me. But i'm a year younger than you. My parents won't let me take any risks, though.
Anouther great post there Grix. I feel kind of the same way really, yes I may only be 14 but I want to give up everything and just concentrate on doing what I want to do, getting the exams I need then stuffing the rest. I'm not sure if that makes sence to any one as I cant really explain it propably.
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