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I've noticed something about myself lately. I'm stronger. Not in a physical way (although my muscular form is indeed impressive), I mean inside me. An emotional way.
When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:
*We walk into school for our second year with her*
Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.
And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.
I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.
I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.
Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.
Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.
However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.
Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:
"Yagosarner?"
"What?" I replied, confused.
"Yagosarner?"
"Sorry?"
Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:
"No, and you haven't got any brains either."
Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D
To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!
I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.
I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:
*We walk into school for our second year with her*
Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.
And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.
I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.
I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.
Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.
Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.
However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.
Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:
"Yagosarner?"
"What?" I replied, confused.
"Yagosarner?"
"Sorry?"
Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:
"No, and you haven't got any brains either."
Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D
To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!
I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.
I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
All you need to do now is start working out
*flexes muscles*
Yeah, you like that don't you
*flexes muscles*
Yeah, you like that don't you
Thanks for the input everyone, much appreciated. {:)
Well Ant, this is all similar to myself
I used to be extremely shy.
But now I am not. I'm a very confident guy, and I still don't knw why or when this change came about.
Case Study: Tuesday. I went to this school...thing, where all of the 'most able' students from four or five schools went for some kind of...thing. It's pretty hard to describe. We (Me, and 14 others from my year) weren't even told much more than this before we went - all pretty vauge.
So we go in, sit down in groups of five that contain no-one from our own school. Complete strangers.
And as I'm walking over to take my seat, I realise that, although I am a bit nervous, I'm sure of myself. I stroll, rather than walk, and I'm actually quite looking forward to meeting these new people.
The whole thing went amazingly well. Our group, though a bit standoffish at this start, got on really well. And I knew that it was down to me, and the fact that I was trying to make everyone comfortable by cracking jokes, and generally talking 100 miles an hour.
That ruled. I turned what could have been a nightmare day into something vaugley enjoyable. For everyone.
And I pulled.
I'm modest as well.
So, basicly, what I'm trying to say is - if you are confident, it helps the people around you. A great place to practice being confident is a public one - you are never going to see these people ever again, so do whatever the hell you want. Don't worry about what people think, unless you actually know and like them.
Man, was that a disjointed post.
But now I am not. I'm a very confident guy, and I still don't knw why or when this change came about.
Case Study: Tuesday. I went to this school...thing, where all of the 'most able' students from four or five schools went for some kind of...thing. It's pretty hard to describe. We (Me, and 14 others from my year) weren't even told much more than this before we went - all pretty vauge.
So we go in, sit down in groups of five that contain no-one from our own school. Complete strangers.
And as I'm walking over to take my seat, I realise that, although I am a bit nervous, I'm sure of myself. I stroll, rather than walk, and I'm actually quite looking forward to meeting these new people.
The whole thing went amazingly well. Our group, though a bit standoffish at this start, got on really well. And I knew that it was down to me, and the fact that I was trying to make everyone comfortable by cracking jokes, and generally talking 100 miles an hour.
That ruled. I turned what could have been a nightmare day into something vaugley enjoyable. For everyone.
And I pulled.
I'm modest as well.
So, basicly, what I'm trying to say is - if you are confident, it helps the people around you. A great place to practice being confident is a public one - you are never going to see these people ever again, so do whatever the hell you want. Don't worry about what people think, unless you actually know and like them.
Man, was that a disjointed post.
I suppose im like Ant now, its the same thing, today this boy who is mate with one of my friends just had a marde because we was playing this run-off as we call it game, he said you walk like a puff, you talk like a puff, you are a puff, (Im not a puff by the way, hes the one that has his hair gelled into curtains every morning) this made me feel real bad but im just gonna ignore him, his best mate has even fell out with this guy and dosen't even talk to him so im just doing the same...
But i have insults to give back, Once he cried at Football Training because no one passed to him and he was 13! So you can see he is the puff and needs to stop insulting people. Now as i said he is mates with one of my mates and obviously this influences my mate and he calls me and some others now but he isn't as bad...
Sorry to go on there, got carried away!
But i have insults to give back, Once he cried at Football Training because no one passed to him and he was 13! So you can see he is the puff and needs to stop insulting people. Now as i said he is mates with one of my mates and obviously this influences my mate and he calls me and some others now but he isn't as bad...
Sorry to go on there, got carried away!
yeah, no point getting upset over some idiots who think they are better than you because they insult others.
Same here, in real life I'm pretty quiet and just hang out with a few freinds at University. Where I work I get on well with everyone and I'm happy as I am.
A lot of the time saying little can be more effective than shouting your mouth and ideas off at all and sundry !
A lot of the time saying little can be more effective than shouting your mouth and ideas off at all and sundry !
It's nice to hear something going right. I had to learn to let things wash over me at an early age.
I've always suffered for being quieter, not very confident. I'm still suffering now.
I've always suffered for being quieter, not very confident. I'm still suffering now.
I've noticed something about myself lately. I'm stronger. Not in a physical way (although my muscular form is indeed impressive), I mean inside me. An emotional way.
When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:
*We walk into school for our second year with her*
Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.
And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.
I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.
I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.
Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.
Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.
However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.
Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:
"Yagosarner?"
"What?" I replied, confused.
"Yagosarner?"
"Sorry?"
Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:
"No, and you haven't got any brains either."
Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D
To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!
I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.
I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.
Thanks for reading, Ant.
When I was about 5 or 6 I used to cry at anything. I had an awful teacher at the Infants:
*We walk into school for our second year with her*
Teacher: Just sit down and don't annoy me, I'm already angry that I've got you lot to deal with again this year.
And I think this is where I lost all my confidence. I still struggle today- I'm nervous around girls and new people especially, something I desperately want to get over but just can't.
I'm very sensitive too (that's not in a boastful way). Everytime a hurtful comment is directed at me, I get annoyed and feel humiliated. I don't say anything, I just hold it inside and let myself quietly and slowly burn with rage.
I'm 14 now, and on Tuesday a couple of people said things about me. There's one boy who is a prime member of the 'cool' group in my year, and often I have heard stories of what they get up to during weekends, especially at night. Totally insane. But anyway, there are a few guys of that group I don't mind, and a few I don't like at all, and this guy's one of the latter. Basically, he enjoys insulting the quieter members of the year, pretty much anyone he doesn't know well. In other words, he's a mouthy git.
Anyway, I happen to (grudgingly) sit on his table in my RS lesson, and he asked people for a black pen. He knew most of the people on my table and so when they denied having one, he didn't care. He asked me, and truthfully, I said no. Then, he had the nerve to call me a "dirty little liar." It may not sound like much but this offended me, because I hardly ever lie. Hardly ever, and yet I've heard him lie on numerous occasions! He continued to plague me with stupid insults, and it was a relief when the lesson finally came to an end.
Usually, this would trouble me for at least a couple of days. I'd waste time thinking it over, asking myself if it was true and that I was a nobody. An idiot. I'd get over it of course, but just knowing that a lary piece of crap like him had caused me to worry for a couple of days made me angry. But I could do nothing.
However, it was different this time. I got home and suddenly remembered what he said. And you know what? I didn't care. And I still don't. I'm not sure what has made me realise this, maybe God (no religion arguments please, just my view), but I know that this guy is a nobody. He doesn't like to make people feel good about themselves. And also, he's dumb. Thick. Maybe that's not a nice thing to say, but his attitude towards life certainly won't help him. I'm going to get a decent job when I'm older, I work hard at school (well, to an extent) and I don't want to make people feel like crap. This may sound boastful again, but I think it's true, I'm a better person than he is.
Also that day, a nice looking girl came up to me and said:
"Yagosarner?"
"What?" I replied, confused.
"Yagosarner?"
"Sorry?"
Finally, my friend told me she was asking for a sharpener. I said no, and then she said:
"No, and you haven't got any brains either."
Usually this would've hurt me, but it didn't. I even managed to say a, "yeah, shush," back to her! :D
To be perfectly honest, this girl is a loud-mouthed b***h. In my view, she's not going to lead a happy life is she continues like that. Do I care about what she said? No, because it's a lie. I have brains, probably more than her. And hey, at least I can speak properly!
I'm pleased to be writing about something good that's happened to me, rather than telling a tragic story about girlfriend like last time. I hope you don't think I'm being boastful or out of order, I'd just like to share with you what's happened to me. Maybe these forums have helped me, they allow me to express feelings lime these which I usually would be afraid to let out.
I can't really think of anything more to say, but to thank-you for reading. If you have then I very much appreciate it, because it means you took a few minutes out of your precious lives to read something written by me.
Thanks for reading, Ant.