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"To everyone"

I want to say something to everyone here who has known me and talked to me at some point. I have just suffered something particularly earth shatteringly bad and I am in the worst state I think I have ever been in. I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face and I find little reason in my life to live.

Basically the people who have been my so called friends for the majority of my life abandoned me i nthe cruelest way possible, I have nowhere to turn to and my life feels empty.

My depression is so bad that I feel sick and I dont want to continue living one more bit, I just want to say that if I do something stupid tonight like taking my own life, I want to say thankyou to everyone here at the forums for been my friends and helping me out when I needed you.

I hope I do return here and get my life sorted out but I didnt want to leave without saying goodbye.

Take care everyone.

-kyz22-

Now that I didn't mean to do.

Kyz22 wrote:
> Half of them were girls though, so I can't hit them. They are
> bit©hes and are sly and if I could get away with hitting them
> beleive me I would. One of them is my ex girlfriend and two of the
> other girls I have been close to emotionally. The guys (two of them)
> are meant to be my best mates, one of them is now going out with my ex
> girlfriend which makes things sort of awkward because she hates me as
> it is. I would have no problem fighting the two lads but the
> repocussions of it would really suck.

I really hate it when thy are girls, they always get away with it.

I know, then they say that your over reacting. F** you! Then they put on the " I love you". Then they plss you off, then you can't hit em, when ya do, they kick really hard.

(Take note, Mystique)

Ok I cant understand whats going on here, probably because im thick.

I've been there, where my "Friends" all left me, I didnt have anyone. Walked around the school by myself with them picking on me.

Until I started to hit them.

Then they stopped it.

I also have the scars from where I was pushed to the ground and kicked in the head.

Until I punched him just above his eye. Closing it up for 3days.

Dont go looking for a fight, but sometimes one is needed.

Keep it real mate.

true, very true.

GasMask wrote:
> Ok I cant understand whats going on here, probably because im thick.
>
> I've been there, where my "Friends" all left me, I didnt
> have anyone. Walked around the school by myself with them picking on
> me.
>
> Until I started to hit them.
>
> Then they stopped it.
>
> I also have the scars from where I was pushed to the ground and kicked
> in the head.
>
> Until I punched him just above his eye. Closing it up for 3days.
>
> Dont go looking for a fight, but sometimes one is needed.
>
> Keep it real mate.

I'll keep you up to date mate.

Oh about the killing thing I was in front of a mirror with a knife to my throat, pondering if I should do it or not.

Its not worth it, really its not.

Like I said.

Life is one thing once taken, will never ever come back.

Whereas others will. As will friendship, love and gratitude. And appreciation.

Yep, I changed my mind about all of that stuff. I have my girlfriend to live for!

Exactly, and of course me!
(And those other """""posters""""")